There are times where I feel more like a woman wearing men's clothing. (In spite of having a beard.) No, I am not 'coming out' as transgender or anything like that- but then, I've never been like most men.

I have almost no appetite for violence or competition, I rarely swear, and I love the idea of being a Daddy some day. In addition, I enjoy cooking and work as a librarian, two traditionally female occupations. It could be my personality, but I think a part of it has to do with upbringing as well.

I thank God that I don't have much in common with my Dad. He frequently judges and condemns other people he knows nothing about, often to the point of being bigoted. I don't think we've been that close- I remember he lost his temper easily when I was a child, and he yelled and spanked whenever we did something wrong.

My Mother was never like that, and she usually listened before judging me. I remember I could play with her as easily as if she were my best friend. She is a very gentle and loving woman. Mrs. Creighton, my teacher for 1st and 2nd grade, was like that too- very kind and very open towards me, even when I wasn't an easy child. And I did not take well to being schooled, I can tell you.

Even as a child, I felt more comfortable in the company of girls. When I was around 7 or so, I remember most boys seemed to enjoy being mean, both to me, and to one another. I remember being made fun of for playing the wrong video game, for being bad at sports, and for daydreaming. Most of my female friends never did that, and so I tended to have more of them until I was about 10 or so.

I hope you don't get the impression that it was all misery. I'm just thinking out loud here. Maybe my inner child is a young girl.