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Motivation pt. 2
8 years ago
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So I got myself a new tablet overy Christmas. A fancy Ugee tablet monitor with a drawing glove and everything. It's easy to use and makes drawing a lot easier to do too, quicker even, especially when coloring and doing careful linework.
So how come I still don't enjoy it?
I uses to love to draw, fatties or anything for that matter. I used to have sketchbooks in the past when I was in middle and high school. Around high school I switched in favor of drawing tablets and storing things on the computer instead of worrying about where to hide my sketchbook from my parents and thinking up lies to fool them ever in case the found them and asked me why it was full of fat dragons. Back then I really loves to draw. But now I'm a senior in college, about to graduate. I actually have an interesting and not very strenuous on campus job. I really enjoy myself and I'm looking forward to working more, school work even. But when it comes to drawing.. it's just not working.
Last semester I was just completely overwhelmed and exhausted, fresh out of motivation and willpower to do anything really. I struggled with school work and all other parts of my life. Finding reason to get out of bed before class started in the morning was the hadest part of my every day life then because of it. This semester I wonder if I've recovered at all. Even with this job, which gives me some sense of self worth for once in my life, I still can't bring myself to draw enough to enjoy it.
I don't want to force it, that'd be stupid. But I just can't seem to truly enjoy drawing like I used to before. I remember I just drew for the heck of it, just to have fun, in the past. I did it because I loved it and it was fun. Today, whenever I want to draw, I open up SAI and something happens to me. My idea, my drive, my motivation, my passion, whatever flicker of a candlelight of whatever I had going in just poof out. Ideas go out the window and I completely forget what I wanted. And so I end up doing nothing at all, and I don't know how to fix it. It's frusturating and the more this cycle repeats the more I end up not wanting to draw at all.
I don't know what to do
So how come I still don't enjoy it?
I uses to love to draw, fatties or anything for that matter. I used to have sketchbooks in the past when I was in middle and high school. Around high school I switched in favor of drawing tablets and storing things on the computer instead of worrying about where to hide my sketchbook from my parents and thinking up lies to fool them ever in case the found them and asked me why it was full of fat dragons. Back then I really loves to draw. But now I'm a senior in college, about to graduate. I actually have an interesting and not very strenuous on campus job. I really enjoy myself and I'm looking forward to working more, school work even. But when it comes to drawing.. it's just not working.
Last semester I was just completely overwhelmed and exhausted, fresh out of motivation and willpower to do anything really. I struggled with school work and all other parts of my life. Finding reason to get out of bed before class started in the morning was the hadest part of my every day life then because of it. This semester I wonder if I've recovered at all. Even with this job, which gives me some sense of self worth for once in my life, I still can't bring myself to draw enough to enjoy it.
I don't want to force it, that'd be stupid. But I just can't seem to truly enjoy drawing like I used to before. I remember I just drew for the heck of it, just to have fun, in the past. I did it because I loved it and it was fun. Today, whenever I want to draw, I open up SAI and something happens to me. My idea, my drive, my motivation, my passion, whatever flicker of a candlelight of whatever I had going in just poof out. Ideas go out the window and I completely forget what I wanted. And so I end up doing nothing at all, and I don't know how to fix it. It's frusturating and the more this cycle repeats the more I end up not wanting to draw at all.
I don't know what to do
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Things don't always come naturally to me, and when it comes to drawing I just sit there at my desk, a pencil in hand, a fresh sheet of printer paper ready to be drawn on, but nothing happens. I have an idea, but I don't know how to start it, or I don't know what to draw... whatever it might be.
You sometimes just need to give yourself a little bit of a push, and just start drawing. Once you start, you won't stop for quite a bit of time- I can guarantee.
I might not be the best example of an artist but whenever I get to do thaings no matter if it is arts or anything else creative I find it lotsa fun and I think that is what counts most. Heck, even if your interests do shift here and there, as long as you are enjoying yourself it's good. X3