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People's expectations of me are too high (Rant/Ignore)
8 years ago
✧✩ ~Welcome to Vertfay Palace, feel free to stay as long as you may wish~ ✩✧ So far 2017 sucks x.x And sometimes I really hate being a high schooler because people have such high expectations of me and I can't even fill half of em because it's beyond my ability.
I mean like, my piano teacher expects me to practice up to 10 times a week and play every piece she gives me up to speed (the worst part is that it's classical music and all you music folks know how well that goes) when I actually can't because I'm always given so much schoolwork; I don't have the time to practice. I've been having to wing it since, and I think it's now to the point where my hands are breaking from the pressure.
And I already have ridiculous expectations in school too x.x Everyone's pressuring me like "Take AP/Honors" when y'all know damn well I'm not smart enough to handle that. And even in band too, like people expect me to either play loud or not sound like shit. But aside from that I really don't know what to do it's just really hard to keep up with all this, and like this is why I feel like shit daily. I mean I know everyone just wants me to better myself but I feel like this is going a bit too far, to be honest...
Plus I've been feeling pretty useless as of lately. I feel like when I try to help people it has no effect on them, and like whenever i'm around friends it's like...I'm not wanted. I just feel so left out of it.
On a lighter note though, I'll be having a raffle at 700 watchers <3 Just need 6 more watches! ;o;
I mean like, my piano teacher expects me to practice up to 10 times a week and play every piece she gives me up to speed (the worst part is that it's classical music and all you music folks know how well that goes) when I actually can't because I'm always given so much schoolwork; I don't have the time to practice. I've been having to wing it since, and I think it's now to the point where my hands are breaking from the pressure.
And I already have ridiculous expectations in school too x.x Everyone's pressuring me like "Take AP/Honors" when y'all know damn well I'm not smart enough to handle that. And even in band too, like people expect me to either play loud or not sound like shit. But aside from that I really don't know what to do it's just really hard to keep up with all this, and like this is why I feel like shit daily. I mean I know everyone just wants me to better myself but I feel like this is going a bit too far, to be honest...
Plus I've been feeling pretty useless as of lately. I feel like when I try to help people it has no effect on them, and like whenever i'm around friends it's like...I'm not wanted. I just feel so left out of it.
On a lighter note though, I'll be having a raffle at 700 watchers <3 Just need 6 more watches! ;o;
Word of advice: Make your high school years as easy as possible, you'll pass that way
Need a hug? They make me feel better when I feel down.
I feel a little better ;u;
Good ^^
Bruh, I think that ALL high schoolers feel the exact same pain at some point that you're feeling right now.
Everyone wants you to always improve yourself, but remember that some of 'em may be hard on ya not necessarily knowing others are doing the same and making it worse.
Some of 'em may not listen.
Some of 'em may seem mean or depreciating to ya.
But they all want you to be great- they just have some difficult/interesting/infuriating ways of doing it.
though if it's any consolation, college does get a little better, from what I've experienced so far.
I know we haven't had a proper chat in a long time, but I'll be somewhat available if you need me.
and tommy you are right saying its a lot, in high school its like youre water in a pipe and the pipe just turned small so all the water is being forced to one point. i think at some point youre going to have to put your foot down and say that you need your space and your own time for these things
I'm basically on the verge of falling apart completely now to be honest...and it's impossible for me to have space to think, I have so much to do it's actually become difficult to think