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9 years ago
I think it was a good time to let you know what's happening to me, since you have been following me for such a long time and liked and shared my art, I think you deserve to know what's going on in my life. I apology if this journal is too long.
You may have noticed a sudden change in my gallery, certanly I'm not posting as much as furry art as before or taking commissions and I'm focusing more in cats love water as my dream project, but I must say I'm not really satdisfied with my rythm of the pages, or the ammount of things I'm posting in my gallery, I'm not even satdisfied with the ammount of things I manage to draw each week.
As well I'm really sorry for not providing you for more art or chances to get commissions from me.
The thing is my life has become quite caotic at the last two years.
I'm struggling to build my own place and leave my parents house, at this point my family situation has gotten almost unbearable and that is not helping my mental health at all. So I've dealt with depression for a long time now, and lately depressive episodes have increased, making me loose a lot of time, energy and creativity.
To be honest I'm strugglin with drawing to the point I'm only able to keep myself focused in one single thing at time, and this thing is cats love water. If I draw other things are very simple, stress free doodles, and not really full fleshed out, and I don't want to risk myself into commissions all of the sudden when I'm not capable to finish a full fleshed out picture as before.
I would love to take commissions again and have fun drawing variety of furry characters, but that would be unfair for you because you'll have to wait months and months, for the mere reason I can't get my ass to work as fast as I should, without distractions. If I have commission I would have to take one or two each month wich isn't a fair deal.
It is my wish to this year to get over this and be able to work in comics, commissions and YCH again, and keep improving my art wich I feel is slacking off. But first I have to come with good terms with myself and the energy I'm puttinng. It's hard to be tired all the time for no reason, specially when you wish to draw things.
So I want to apologize for those who have been following me, and new followers expecting to see more vively pornish art if you get dissapointed. I can't promess I would be the same as before because that's often impossible, but I want to try my best to make more content in the future, and improve it to the direction I want it to take.
So you know, I'm pretty well concious about what's happening with my art, I hope to fix it soon. And I hope you still watch me because you mean a lot to me, thank you!
i hope you do better but i try not to bother onta's crew.
We are here and will wait patiently for you!
I hope you get things sorted out and feel better soon. Don't worry about the art output for the sake of other people, I think most of them are happy with any piece of art they see from you, even if you upload less frequently.
I hope you have time to take it easy, your mental health is more important.
But It's great to see you back again. ^_^
Hope things start getting better for ya.
Hugs!
I was going to say all that anyway, but when I finished reading I found that you had posted this journal in the meantime. I'm a therapist in the US, so I can't speak to how the mental health system works in Argentina or how your culture responds to individuals pursuing mental health treatment (it's still misunderstood here, even if it's not as stigmatized). But I've lived with major depressive disorder for years and helped a lot of people learn to live with their symptoms, and I can say that it can get better if you ask for help. If you are already getting help, don't be discouraged if it doesn't feel like you're making progress as fast as you want. Mental health treatment is like trying to find your way out of a dark forest: you can't be sure you're going the right way, and you might find you're suddenly back where you started, but eventually you will find a tree with low branches that you climb up to get your bearings. You are giving us all a beautiful gift by sharing your work with us, and we are thankful for that. I'll keep rooting for you no matter how much or how little work you upload.
Thanks for everything Peri! Seriously.
Also, you should be doing whatever you need to do to lower your stress levels, while maintaining enough money to live comfortably. If you're able to make a cosy living off of working on Cats Love Water alone, then do that for a while until you feel up to doing more. It's good that you've explained yourself, that's the right thing to do for your fans, but don't feel guilty for taking the time to manage your workload and your well being; these are things that any entrepreneur has to do (and yes, you count as an entrepreneur, because you're making a living off of your own business.)
If I've misunderstood your situation, I apologize. Feel free to chat here with myself, or any of the other people commenting on this journal, to simply vent or ask for advice. You've obviously got some great fans here (myself included) and you never know how helpful random people on the internet can be, especially random people who love your work and want to see you prosper!
Este tema no es Pavada peri, no se va solo y aunque va a mejorar si te cas de tu casa te puede dejar secuelas, no te acostumbres a estar asi, anda al medico
Alongside the peeps who commented before me, I'm struggling with depression too. I'm beating myself up for not working on my stories or drawing much anymore, despite the positive response I've received from so many people (including you!! thank you) years ago. "I should be doing this ..." and "I should be doing more ..." That self-judgement and criticism is crippling and quickly leaks into all parts of your life. That's not a motivating way of thinking, but a punishing one. Even small daily tasks become painful to the soul.
I wish I could offer good advice or help you out somehow, unfortunately I don't know what is the best thing to say. I don't even know what to tell myself to make myself feel better (lol). I offer you warm encouragement in improving your living situation. It sounds like if your living situation were better, your energy and motivation would improve, so I hope you're chipping away at that problem too. You're dealing with something really big and heavy, and I know it takes monumental effort to focus in this condition. But every drawing you make, every task you complete, means you conquered depression for that moment. You're a fighter Peri, the fatigue is hard to deal with, but I'm really glad you're still with us. I hope you stay with us, too. Hang in there. We love you very, very much!
Don't worry about us, we're here because we like your art, whether it's something you've done for others or yourself! Take your time and sort things out the best way you can for yourself. ^^