Egads, I neglected my journal! i meant to write one earlier this month about the exciting thing I got to do - i joined in my first protest march with the Arkansas water guardians, a march against trump, bigotry,access pipeline here in Arkansas and various other things.

It was a rush to get there since it as IMMEDIATELY after I got off work, but I thankfully arrived before the march began. I wanted to make a sign, but didn't have time. It was very heartwarming and invigorating to be in a crowd of brave, compassionate people, from all different backgrounds and walks of life. I had initially been invited by a friend of mine, but I couldn't spot her anywhere at first (more on that later) so I found a fellow with a big rainbow cape and decided to stick with him and his family. Once the march started, he and I started handing out flyers for a benefit dinner (which wound up getting cancelled, apparently some bad stuff went down..) but got so caught up in it we wound up getting left behind and a little lost. We ran into some really cool people, as well as one guy who seemed to shout an insult at us, but then ran away before we could see who it was. Getting lost gave the two of us the time to get to know each other and become friends. When we finally reconnected with the group, the march had reached its end and there were people speaking. his mom was very relieved, as she had been worried about his safety when we got lost.

There were many different speakers, a few very adorable and sweet children, a woman from the black lives matter movement, a teacher, and a banjo-strumming' singer dude (he was awesome). At this point it turned out my friend HAD showed up, but with my face-memorization problems (I'd only been around her once before), I ended up being too worried to approach and say hi, in case it was someone else. Then I found out later it was her, and felt very silly, but thankfully she was understanding.

After the speeches and songs, we disbanded a bit and I headed toward the library, as my new friend had to go home. I got to chat with some more ladies form the group there, while enjoying the tasty library food that I hadn't had in a long time (it was my first time in the library since around 2014 or 2015).

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In other news, I saw a short youtube cartoon series that I quite enjoyed and wanted to share it with my followers: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=laBWc39rXF4 It's about a depressed duck guy in a junky old apartment building trying to deal with his issues, his weird neighbors, and eventually his new relationship. I don't want to give too much away about it, so I'll just say episode 3 scared me and then episode 4 made me feel better with how adorable it was.

In other good news, I recently got myself a weekly planner book, which I dubbed my "gay agenda" :D Through the combination of self-discipline and the book I've been feeling more confident and focused the last few days, setting time aside from each day to work on specific projects, errands and hobbies. I've always had a problem with wanting to do and try EVERYTHING - all the time - which has been very stressful and overstimulating.

sorry if any of this is rambly or confusing...I didn't sleep well last night and I've been in a haze most of the evening..