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16 years ago
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I...don't know what to say...
Today, I woke up this morning early almost and went to school. I didn't feel like driving so I was dropped off. It was a real pain having to finish my painting today. I hung out with my classmates in between breaks and was kinda alright. I didn't have money to spend this time. The teacher was a pain too, but only because of the painting.
A sharp pain hit me in the head when I was painting. It felt like a knife was carving into the top right side of my brain. It lasted about 15 minutes then dissipates. It was sudden and unexpected.
I stayed in school today to catch up on my tests for math, but I wasn't able to do any tests today. I talked to a good colleague on my way out and though she was kind enough to offer a ride I still waited for me own. It was rough, I was tired and work-study would only wear me down. I cam home and talked to my buddies about getting together again for another ghostbuster gig for halloween. Him and his brother is moving to a nice place so we can all get together and work our things there.
There came crying in the room as if sounded like sound fatal has happened. Me and my father immediately went to see what it was. It was the sound of my sister with Chequita in her arms and she is grieving while on her knees. It so happened that a mad-woman drove wildly down our street and she was caught in her path. Sure there have been crazy people driving in our road before and Chequita always tend to cross when people are coming, but this time it had costed her life and there was no one there to hear it from.
It was sudden and expected, I don't know what to say. I hated that things take me like this, this hazard and tragedy could have been avoided. It doesn't feel right to see a dead family pet, even for more than 7 years.
It was not quiet, people in the neighborhood came out to see what was going on. Our neighbor who are good friends of ours from salvador. They all helped out in burying her. I have never felt dead weight in a box before, she was about 5 or 10 pounds. I'm sure there were signs that I have missed, there were signs that this was going to happen.
My mother's dream of Chequita disappearing.
The headache, the news on the radio about traffic accidents. Signs are ignored because there's no way to stop things from happening, because we cannot see the when and how. My sister had it harder than any of us, she is closer to chequita and felt that she had somehow lost a second mother. She is old and we knew her time would come eventually. Chela knew her time came when she have not receive her mother back after waiting by the door for so long. She's been whining all night, and perhaps will till morning. Maria doesn't know what happen because we didn't tell her, with her mental problems she would not understand the nature of life and death so the lost would devastate her to the point of a serious traumatic break down. She..will find out eventually,but for now Maria, my little sister, will not know melancholy.
I don't know what I feel right now.. I don't feel sad, nor happy.. The last thing I did was to take a small sword that I had made with the intent of giving it to a friend of mine, used it as a cross to mark Chequita's burial. My mind feels empty, my heart feels hallow, and yet after such a terrible lost I have not felt any part of me grieving or suffering. I just feel devastated with an anguish of something like this having to happen to us needlessly to get us to see what is going on. This is truly an unnecessary death, at least for us.
If a dog can die in the middle of the night by some girl who works close by at Smoothie King, 50 or 60 mph down the residential road. Imagine a small child..
This is a wake up call, when something happens we all have to look and listen. You'll never know what you have until you loose it.
http://i170.photobucket.com/albums/.....e/Photo7-2.jpg
rest in peace
Today, I woke up this morning early almost and went to school. I didn't feel like driving so I was dropped off. It was a real pain having to finish my painting today. I hung out with my classmates in between breaks and was kinda alright. I didn't have money to spend this time. The teacher was a pain too, but only because of the painting.
A sharp pain hit me in the head when I was painting. It felt like a knife was carving into the top right side of my brain. It lasted about 15 minutes then dissipates. It was sudden and unexpected.
I stayed in school today to catch up on my tests for math, but I wasn't able to do any tests today. I talked to a good colleague on my way out and though she was kind enough to offer a ride I still waited for me own. It was rough, I was tired and work-study would only wear me down. I cam home and talked to my buddies about getting together again for another ghostbuster gig for halloween. Him and his brother is moving to a nice place so we can all get together and work our things there.
There came crying in the room as if sounded like sound fatal has happened. Me and my father immediately went to see what it was. It was the sound of my sister with Chequita in her arms and she is grieving while on her knees. It so happened that a mad-woman drove wildly down our street and she was caught in her path. Sure there have been crazy people driving in our road before and Chequita always tend to cross when people are coming, but this time it had costed her life and there was no one there to hear it from.
It was sudden and expected, I don't know what to say. I hated that things take me like this, this hazard and tragedy could have been avoided. It doesn't feel right to see a dead family pet, even for more than 7 years.
It was not quiet, people in the neighborhood came out to see what was going on. Our neighbor who are good friends of ours from salvador. They all helped out in burying her. I have never felt dead weight in a box before, she was about 5 or 10 pounds. I'm sure there were signs that I have missed, there were signs that this was going to happen.
My mother's dream of Chequita disappearing.
The headache, the news on the radio about traffic accidents. Signs are ignored because there's no way to stop things from happening, because we cannot see the when and how. My sister had it harder than any of us, she is closer to chequita and felt that she had somehow lost a second mother. She is old and we knew her time would come eventually. Chela knew her time came when she have not receive her mother back after waiting by the door for so long. She's been whining all night, and perhaps will till morning. Maria doesn't know what happen because we didn't tell her, with her mental problems she would not understand the nature of life and death so the lost would devastate her to the point of a serious traumatic break down. She..will find out eventually,but for now Maria, my little sister, will not know melancholy.
I don't know what I feel right now.. I don't feel sad, nor happy.. The last thing I did was to take a small sword that I had made with the intent of giving it to a friend of mine, used it as a cross to mark Chequita's burial. My mind feels empty, my heart feels hallow, and yet after such a terrible lost I have not felt any part of me grieving or suffering. I just feel devastated with an anguish of something like this having to happen to us needlessly to get us to see what is going on. This is truly an unnecessary death, at least for us.
If a dog can die in the middle of the night by some girl who works close by at Smoothie King, 50 or 60 mph down the residential road. Imagine a small child..
This is a wake up call, when something happens we all have to look and listen. You'll never know what you have until you loose it.
http://i170.photobucket.com/albums/.....e/Photo7-2.jpg
rest in peace
