So... yeah...
8 years ago
I apologize my sudden ending of the streaming yesterday.
Being surrounded by such amazing artists, looking at their streams and then my own, I noticed a huge gap of difference happening there. I do not think that my slow and careful way of working is fit as live entertainment...
So I let myself down and had thoughts that further demoralized me to a point where I just stopped.
I know I should not do things like that, but it happened.
Then it didn't helped those thoughts that no one noticed until like 20 minutes after I stopped :V
All that toxic thinking kinda got me teared up for a bit, but I am fine.
Dunno where I'll go from here on, except continuing working in my own way and tempo.
Being surrounded by such amazing artists, looking at their streams and then my own, I noticed a huge gap of difference happening there. I do not think that my slow and careful way of working is fit as live entertainment...
So I let myself down and had thoughts that further demoralized me to a point where I just stopped.
I know I should not do things like that, but it happened.
Then it didn't helped those thoughts that no one noticed until like 20 minutes after I stopped :V
All that toxic thinking kinda got me teared up for a bit, but I am fine.
Dunno where I'll go from here on, except continuing working in my own way and tempo.
I say all this as someone that's doing my best to improve, too. It's okay to doubt yourself! But don't give up and don't stop enjoying the process. And remember that comparison is the death of joy!
And very important thing is that practise makes perfect. Better artists also sucked at the very beginning, remember about that.
For me you're already amazing artist. It doesn't matter, wether you work fast or slow on a drawing. As long, as you can fell you're improving yourself, that's good for you!
Don't think of saying, that you'll never be as good as [put whichever artist you want], cause tha's not true. With enough time spend on excercising, drawing, doodling, doing those warm-up sketches and all and you'll reach their level! Or maybe even exceed them!
So remember, believe in yourself, don't think you're bad, cause you're not, you're good!