Okay, recently my cousin's gotten a job as an assistant manager to a Finish Line shop, and he says that there's a possibility i can get a job there as a stocker, sorting through inventory in the back. Now, this...has some issues with me.

Okay don't get me wrong, i would love having a job, and this seems good to me. I don't ave to interact with people, thnak god, though this involves numbers...a concept of which reminds me of math, and i suck at math. But there's a bigger problem...my cousin.

Now...he does not have the best track record with promises, when it came to getting me a birthday gift, he never got it...or christmas...in fact he usually ends up vanishing to go with his friends and i am behind to help my folks at home. Plus...well, i have my doubts he can actually get me the job, they might give it to someone else before he can ask. Maybe i'm a cynic...okay i AM a cynic, i also have no faith in him, but that doesn't eman i don't want the job, its the fcat it'll be my first job ever.

I've made no secret the fact i've been spending nearly six years doing nothing but playing games, if i never got twitch and started doing Let's Plays, i'd be bored. But it's the fact i just really have little faith in, well anything anymore. This job could be good, mostly i got a feeling i'll end up getting canned a week or two after they hire me. Plus there are horror stories about other people's jobs, and there's my own experiences with people that made me, well, depressed, cynical and even want to hurt others for ticking me off.

My dad basically told me 'Snap out of it, you gotta do something other than laze around the house all day!' And i do want to, just with everything going on, and my own reservations about my cousin's promises, i kind of doubt i'll get it. But if i do, i'll have to talk it over with the guys about this, and have to reschedule everything we do to make time. That's if i get the job, and thats a big IF.