Been coping with depression a bit lately. A lot that has fueled the depression is the feelings that I'm not wanted around. I keep dwelling on the concept that friends care about you and show you support, and yet I find myself going through the same routine every day and I just don't feel that I mean anything to anybody. I find myself being more withdrawn and wondering why I bother existing in this community anymore. It is frustrating not ever hearing from people without having to poke and prod for interaction and frankly I've heard all the excuses why nobody bothers but apathy is apathy. I don't know if I'll delete everything here or just keep things up and just lurk, I'm still debating on what I want to do in that regard.