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Anxiety, Depression, Stress - Quiet - Emergency Dental
8 years ago
So... I've been trying to figure out how to write this journal for weeks now. But now that I'm kinda better, sorta, maybe. Honestly, I'm not sure if I'm even close to getting better. I'm still dealing with bouts of depression now and then, as well as quite a bit of anxiety and stress right now. I never liked talking about it. I've always closed myself in til I felt that I was able to "come back out" of my box. I haven't really talked to many people except for a select few who've been helping me through my hardships. I'm sorry for keeping quiet about it all but it's hard to just spout my insecurities to the whole world.
For the last few weeks, I've been dealing with a lot of pain to add onto the depression/anxiety. Menstrual (this used to happen once every 3-6 months [I know, this usually means something is hella wrong with me.] to once every few weeks now. The menstrual pain has gotten to the point of where I can barely get out of bed. These have lasted for 2-3 weeks. TMI but I wanted to explain myself, I guess. Since not many understands this part when I'm not as blunt about it.) I've gotten a lot of neck pain that made it hurt to do to much for days. Due to all of this, it made it very, very difficult for me to work, but I've been trying. Honestly, I have. It still hurts to work for long periods of time (I can work up to 3 hours before my hand/arm/shoulder starts to burn.).
To add to all of that, for the last few days, I've been dealing with a lot of teeth pain. Come to find out, I needed crowns. Three crowns currently though I could only, barely, afford one of them (only with some help). The one that was causing most of the pain. The procedure for this one caused me a lot of jaw pain. I was unable to open my mouth for days. It still hurts to open completely and it's been about.. 4 days now since the procedure. I'll be needing to get my wisdom teeth removed soon too.
Because of all this and the extra stress I've been having lately, I will not be taking anymore commissions unless it's a stream commission. I will not be taking any more suit commissions til I feel like I can do them in a more timely fashion (As in, when I don't feel overwhelmed with my crazy emotions and all above that I already said.). I will be closing everything down once my current stuff is completed. After I finish my list, I will be finding a job and, more than likely, slowly drop down art in general for a while. It's becomming not as fun anymore and I'm losing my want for art things. I'm needing to step away and that will be a slow process to get to.
Again, I am sorry for being so quiet and slow through all of this. Again, I am working, but it's just slower than normal and I appreciate the patience everyone has with me. I'll get through my list, just need time. I know I have a lot of work to do (especially on myself, definitely on myself). I just need a bit more patience.
Wish the news was better but it's not and I know apologizing over and over wont help.
So please, bare with me.
Thank you.
- Tora
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For the last few weeks, I've been dealing with a lot of pain to add onto the depression/anxiety. Menstrual (this used to happen once every 3-6 months [I know, this usually means something is hella wrong with me.] to once every few weeks now. The menstrual pain has gotten to the point of where I can barely get out of bed. These have lasted for 2-3 weeks. TMI but I wanted to explain myself, I guess. Since not many understands this part when I'm not as blunt about it.) I've gotten a lot of neck pain that made it hurt to do to much for days. Due to all of this, it made it very, very difficult for me to work, but I've been trying. Honestly, I have. It still hurts to work for long periods of time (I can work up to 3 hours before my hand/arm/shoulder starts to burn.).
To add to all of that, for the last few days, I've been dealing with a lot of teeth pain. Come to find out, I needed crowns. Three crowns currently though I could only, barely, afford one of them (only with some help). The one that was causing most of the pain. The procedure for this one caused me a lot of jaw pain. I was unable to open my mouth for days. It still hurts to open completely and it's been about.. 4 days now since the procedure. I'll be needing to get my wisdom teeth removed soon too.
Because of all this and the extra stress I've been having lately, I will not be taking anymore commissions unless it's a stream commission. I will not be taking any more suit commissions til I feel like I can do them in a more timely fashion (As in, when I don't feel overwhelmed with my crazy emotions and all above that I already said.). I will be closing everything down once my current stuff is completed. After I finish my list, I will be finding a job and, more than likely, slowly drop down art in general for a while. It's becomming not as fun anymore and I'm losing my want for art things. I'm needing to step away and that will be a slow process to get to.
Again, I am sorry for being so quiet and slow through all of this. Again, I am working, but it's just slower than normal and I appreciate the patience everyone has with me. I'll get through my list, just need time. I know I have a lot of work to do (especially on myself, definitely on myself). I just need a bit more patience.
Wish the news was better but it's not and I know apologizing over and over wont help.
So please, bare with me.
Thank you.
- Tora
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