Ok. I'm going to just be brutally honest here. Last October during my annual physical, doc took bloodwork. Results of said bloodwork were normal, except for my hormone levels. Turns out, for some odd reason, the part of my body which produces said hormone, necessary for maintaining several key systems, including my mood, blood pressure and even my sex drive has pretty much stopped working normally.
Jump forward two months, because it took me that long to get referred and get an appointment with a specialist who deals with the issues I am having starts me on HRT, hormone replacement therapy. Then comes November, a weather change, and I get sick as hell with acute bronchitis, resulting in me having to take a couple days off. Week before Christmas, I get a present, a new employment contract which comes with a raise, and I'm still sick, sicker in fact. Go to get checked out, and FML it's pneumonia, I'm out for two days. Three courses of antibiotics, including two full courses of hardcore antibiotics, two courses of prescription grade cough suppressants and finally at the end of February, I finally get rid of the majority of it, leaving only a minor cough.
While sick, due to various issues, including lack of sleep, I stop both my antidepressants (because they literally stopped working) and my HRT for a good 3-4 weeks. I'm now back on the HRT, which is resulting in a re-acclimation period. I have very little desire for sex, and to make matters worse, my patience for my roommate at work is stretched thin. There's already been a couple "counseling" sessions with my boss regarding it.
I don't know what to do here. Part of me wants to say "Fuck the World and everyone in it." and lock myself away somewhere with a computer, tv, streaming services, food and drink including alcohol, and another side wants to get things under control. I'm trying my best right now, but it doesn't seem like good enough. I'm fighting with myself and it feels like I'm losing.
Can someone help?