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Apologies for being slow (There is a reason for it)
8 years ago
Firstly I like to say sorry for being slow on art, especially to those who are awaiting art from me.
Things have been really busy for me in the last month.
One of those reasons being because of my dad and I getting kicked out of our home about a month ago, now living with my uncle's place temporarily. Within the time from now and then, we have been so fortunate with how much support we've gotten from different people. Many people helped us move our stuff, people brought gifts over, took us out for dinner, did service for us without us even asking for it. The term miracle can mean different things to different people, but I've seen this as a miracle. Without having supportive family and friends, who knows where I'd be living right now. Another miracle that happened was the birth of my niece. I've been down to visit her, and it's an awesome experience.
The other reason is more so for the last couple of weeks, maybe more. I've tried to get my social life and skills back on track. To be honest, since not longer after I moved back down to the city suburbs (start of 2015). I have kept myself really reserved in my own space from the real world. Perhaps a bit too much. It really hit me towards the end of last year that I was struggling mentally to keep the friendships I had, just from not really talking anyone else at all. Even my best friends, where it got to the point where they were worried I wasn't wanting to hang out with them anymore.
I think especially with how much the course I was doing previously, brought back a lot of my depression, a lot of it stress related this time. Feeling of stress, fear of failure and such just prevented me to want to associate with anyone, and that has been really damaging. Plus I had a couple of minor mental breakdowns around October/November if any of you remember how depressive I was then. That certainly did not help me out at all.
So over the last month people may have realised I haven't posted as much, drawn much, held or visited much streams, talked on social media, etc. I haven't lost my passion for drawing, but I have been taking quite a few breaks for a good reason I guess you can say. What I have been doing is trying to reconnect myself with friends and family more often, and re-learning to have that want to hang out and talk with other humans again. More than anything, I'm trying to improve my mental and social health. I can't keep myself closed up to people who mean more to me than anyone in the world.
Also, with me starting a Vlog channel, I'm hoping I can find some way through this new challenge to help me be more happy with myself. Gives me something to appreciate about my life, a chance to be more adventurous. A chance to let myself be me without my anxiety getting in the way as much.
So please don't think I'm completly ignoring the artwork that needs to be done. I am doing them at a slow pace. Right now, the thing I'm concentrating on most is getting myself to be happy again. Might seem a little selfish, but nothing is more important for ANY person, than their own wellbeing.
Thanks for being understanding Current Working List - 30th of January, 2022
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KlausD - Trade piece/2016
Anthropornorphic - Commission/2016
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KlausD
Anthropornorphic
Its understandable. I had my house burnt down a few years ago. I know meaning of losing something. Everyone deals with things that happen to them differently. You just need to get your mind in order first. It is ok that you are set back as you dont know if something else will come around anf kick you in the balls. Life tends to do that.
Know you have your family, as you have said, there for you. Yet you need to step back and let it process what has happen so you can stand up and walk forward.
Know you have friends in life and online who will be there for you. Just know things happen and you cant beat yourself up over it.
Till then sit back relax and breathe. Tomorrow is another. It might be brighter?