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Been having alot of issues sleeping.
9 years ago
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Last few weeks I've gotten into bizarre sleeping habits and its left me feeling miserable at work. I find myself constantly doing inane things instead of sleeping, like cruising sl or looking at doggo memes or watching stupid youtube.
I've also been having alot of odd out of nowhere emotional issues, which occurred before my sleeping issues. Just have this constant sick feel, like a dull empty ache in my chest and a vomity feeling in my belly. Feel like i want to cry but I can't even budge a tear, i feel alone even when surrounded by friends, I feel worthless and like anything I do is meaningless to this indifferent life.
I am fighting it as hard as I can, i mean I have my own home, I have a great job, I live within walking distance of anything I could want, like parks, gaming stores, food, all that! I just don't understand, wtf is wrong with me I'm so tired of feeling like this, i wish I could just stamp my emotions out, I hate them... i just hate being a burden to friends, i don't want to be the sad emo mopey person, I want to be the happy helpful person you always want to talk to!..ughh... just what is wrong with me...
Hope you guys don't mind but I like venting this way, it feels easy, like i'm not pestering someone.
I just want to be happy.
I've also been having alot of odd out of nowhere emotional issues, which occurred before my sleeping issues. Just have this constant sick feel, like a dull empty ache in my chest and a vomity feeling in my belly. Feel like i want to cry but I can't even budge a tear, i feel alone even when surrounded by friends, I feel worthless and like anything I do is meaningless to this indifferent life.
I am fighting it as hard as I can, i mean I have my own home, I have a great job, I live within walking distance of anything I could want, like parks, gaming stores, food, all that! I just don't understand, wtf is wrong with me I'm so tired of feeling like this, i wish I could just stamp my emotions out, I hate them... i just hate being a burden to friends, i don't want to be the sad emo mopey person, I want to be the happy helpful person you always want to talk to!..ughh... just what is wrong with me...
Hope you guys don't mind but I like venting this way, it feels easy, like i'm not pestering someone.
I just want to be happy.
Maybe talk to a doctor about it? Sometimes depression is just straight up medical and not caused by circumstance, and it can't hurt to talk to a professional about it. If you can of course! I know not everyone has a trustworthy doctor they can talk to without spending a fortune :x
It couldn't hurt to take a break from some of your more needy friends if you have a situation like that. Trying to make other sad people feel better can really take it out of you too, wether it feels like it or not.
With the sleeping however, just lie in bed and start creating stories with your characters. Something to keep your mind busy, and off any impacting thoughts that might stress you and keep you from sleeping.
Oh and maybe music, if you can fall asleep with noises.
50mg to 100mg of benadryl about 45 minutes before you want to sleep. anything with valerian or Melatonin can help too. it doesn't make you tired, but it gives you the subtle sensation that it's late.
these kinds of routines are important to stick with. otherwise you'll be an unproductive mess. it's not worth it. nobody's punishing you but yourself. so don't be an enemy.