I didn't get the supervisor position at my job, worked so so hard... but I was told I'm still the best there, guess I'm just not good enough for the position. That empty feeling has gone from empty to feeling like someone has literally pulled my heart out. I feel nothing but loathing and regret, and just a infinite amount of weight crushing me. wish I was a smarter person and did not make the stupid awful decisions I make. Regrets are all that fill my head, and just a sickening empty feeling in my gut. After I was told this heart breaking thing I thought I could just shrug it off and ignore it and move on, but it literally tore me down and ripped me apart, peeled me like a banana! I broke out in tears, then scream, then laughter. i have never felt madness grip me so passionately hard as it did. Then it was just gone. and I'm just left with a empty sleeplessness. I felt like I was given everything just to have it pulled from my hands in some cruel joke.

thank god though, i seem to have this uncanny ability to just turn to steel and just not feel at all anymore, if it wasn't for this attribute I'd fear for my life's sake. so I'm just going to step through it and move on like I always do, and just push the pains and those who caused it away from me, and just move on, fresh and ready for the next shit show.

Now that that emo shit is over with, i have a few trades left with  xouual  crobat  Monstar  kiki-uma Once I get done with those I'll be open to more trades!
I except any skill level for trades, I just have to like your style and content.