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Selling Main Fursona? ~~ Thinking / Pondering
8 years ago
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Corganda So as the Journal title States I am possibly thinking about Selling my Main Fursona I've had the past 3 years.
Shiko.
She's been there for awhile, but a lot has changed in 3 years. Originally I made her when I was in my last relationship and was rebelling and wanted to be someone completely different rather than the person I was. I made Shiko because I felt I wanted to strive to be her, strive to be better, but now, I realize and have felt that I should of made a Fursona of someone I am, someone I currently am. That I should love myself for me, and not try to be anyone but.
Shiko, in all honesty holds quite a bit of hurt for me, but she holds many memories too. Most good, but many bad as well.
In this past year & a half alone I've made huge strides. I am not the same person I was, and don't want to go back. I originally lost my way with my Religion, I stopped doing things I love, stopped trying to be someone I want to be, and that is all within the creation of Shiko. Granted, I'm not saying she is a "bad" fursona, she just holds too many bad & self loathing meanings now for me to even own her. Of course, I am only currently thinking & or Pondering the thought.
I have a possible new Main fursona in the making, one that focuses on my roots and descent. That is more me, the current me and is someone I already am, someone I don't have to attempt to work up to being, but a Fursona that is me in my current flesh, heart and mind.
This new fursona would be based on///
* during a time of self healing, and a point in my life where I am currently seeking help to hopefully learn to handle my Major Depression, ADHD, ADD & PTSD
* My Native American Cherokee Descent & harnessing and loving that side of me
*My love of Nature & my love of being a Solitary Wiccan practitioner
* My love of wolves and the memory of my Great Grandfather and the Cherokee he put in my blood
* Earning Confidence, learning self esteem and how to purely love one self
In the end. Shiko was based off of all Negative reasons, was made during a very negative time of my life. I love her to death, but I really feel detached from her more so than any other character I've ever made in the past. This is all still up in the air, and I will have to go through all of Shiko's Art to see how much I would sell her for. Just from my Gallery on FA I counted 32 Arts, not counting some I haven't posted and not counting some Icons.
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It's kind of a tricky and hard situation. As you said, you would be letting go of the good memories as well as the bad. The good memories were great, but the bad ones were very bad. I am still very much on the fence of what to do. I know selling is like erasing her from my memories, but at the same time she could make someone else life extremely happy and not have anything bad connected to her; giving Shiko the freedom to be probably what she's always craved
^_^
It's a big change and that sort of thing is never easy.