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UPDATE 018 :: Personal Chat / How Are You ??
8 years ago
Hey folks , just wanted to make a journal to kind of open up about ...well myself and how I've been feeling lately .
Recently I've been having a bunch of medical issues here and there , stressing over a few things and such - and just completely drained physically and mentally ;; If I can be honest , I've been feeling very lonely and detached due to some difficulty with me being able to keep up with people and socialize . I tend to beat myself up over not being as talkative as I used to - responding to every comment and keeping up with messages / DMs. I've noticed these changes , and as to be expected- they are very hard on me , because I really want to be sociable - I wanna know what's going on with you guys and just be able to keep up and be involved in this community .
Overall , these past few months have been really hard , and I've been doing my best to try and remind folks of my appreciation for their patience whenever I can . Unfortunately some people that I've spoken to haven't really cared for these explanations and have dropped communication with me - but with some help from others- I've been able to jump over those hurdles as best I can.
Although these personal issues have been occurring -the constant support and patience you folks give me and my artwork really do get me through some very tough days - so just god bless you guys . I still don't believe I would be able to live in my own apartment without you folks supporting me like this , so seriously thank you all so so much .
Another thing I wanted to talk about is comments ! I tend to lack a lot of energy from time to time - so sometimes I'll be able to respond to 1000 comments, and other times I can only respond to 2 ;; other times I get pretty overwhelmed when I get a lot of comments on a post , but I promise that they are always a pleasure to read and always make me smile ! So the comments that folks leave are incredibly important to me , and do let me know that my content is loved and appreciated - so please don't feel discouraged if I don't respond !
But now that I've gotten that out - I'd really like to know how you folks are doing lately ? Any progress in school ? Conventions you've attended lately ? Let me know !
Thanks for reading guys <3
Make sure to take it easy and not over work yourself come then !
Yeaaaaaa college definitely brings the heat ;;- but it's good that things are manageable for you so far yea ? Take it easy friend <3
I hope things have been a bit easier for you recently ! I know you've been going through some very serious turmoil -so please know my heart goes out to you every day <333
I'll be sure to message you soon !!
I think too often, artists think that just because we don't talk to everyone that it makes us somehow cold and I can understand how it can get hard the more well known you are to people.
In my opinion doing journals like this is just as effective because it addresses everyone on a whole scale and let's us know what's going on.
So thanks for doing this and take your time and do what you can. Life happens.
As far as conventions I hadn't really been to any. Been attending online school for Game Art so along with having kids and losing two rats and a cat, it's been a roller coaster ride of emotions and exhaustion.
Other than that, I'm doing okay personally, just working on getting all As in school and trying to decide what to do with what the plans are after school is over. Just some overall general stuffs. Also doing a ton of housework, paying bills, etc. Lol.
Other than that I really do hope to work up the courage to do more of these and continue to keep folks posted on whats going on . Hearing that this journal was well received on your end encourages me to do more - so thank you ! <3
AH no worries - I actually haven't attended a convention yet either and I've been out of school for a bout 2 years now ? But oh my gosh - it sounds like you've been through the thick of it honestly -and I'm so sorry for your loss ;; But it's a relief to hear that you've been able to keep pressing forward and proceed to take care of what needs to be done - I know I probably wouldn't be able to pick up my feet after handling all of that ;; so I hope you can find some time to yourself to relax, and give yourself a pat on the back !
I'm glad i was able to help and i look forward to future journals as well.
Ahaha, yeah that crazy thing called life.
The ultimate soap opera not brought to us by hasbro lol
a lot better huh ? Good luck with everything terra - take care of yourself !
Make sure to put yourself first though- your mental/physical health always comes first (and then school ofcourse lol ) ! Whenever you break out- feel free to hit me up !
On my end I am swinging by Texas Furry Fiesta tomorrow \o/ Very much hoping to alleviate some workplace stress ahaa, I'm heavily considering going back to art fulltime.
and I totally agree- I'm sure those folks just aren't meant to be in my life - especially if they end up having such a large affect on my health ;;
Ahhh Thank you so so much wyla ;n; you're more amazing and wonderful than I could have ever imagined !! I'll work really hard on not pushing my head so far into the sand in the future <33
OH wow that is happening this week huh ! Make sure to have fun and relax during your visit - I'm sure you definitely deserve a break from work !! And you definitely should !!!
Thank you so much for the best wishes - and I hope you're safe and well !! <333
I definitely will need to put more of an effort to remember that some things are just out of my control and i'm def not a robot ;;
Anxiety definitely fuels a lot of these problems in the worst way ;; but thank you so so much for the best wishes <3
OH yeah same here ! I just listened to one of their new songs and its so jammin~ what a blessing
and god i love noodle's new look i'm never gonna recover !!
I've been out of college and in my freelance career for almost a year now. It's been.. interesting. I battled a lot of depression and I'm starting to come out on the other side after changing so much in my life.
I'm excited to see what the future brings.
Also there's a new Demon Hunter album coming out this week, and they're my favorite uwu
Ah almost a year huh ? I can believe it has been - it can be a bit of a weird experience getting out there n getting your feet wet LOL
I've been out of school for about 2 years now and I still feel like I'm just getting the hang of freelancing haha
But wow - that's REALLY good to hear ! It sounds like you've gone through a huge amount of development over time - and the future sounds pretty bright for you !
OH WH I've never heard of them ! What genre are they ? Do you have a favorite album from them- can you recommend one I should try n listen to < < ?
Demon Hunter does metal! They've got a wide stylistic range. they have a lot of light sing-y songs, some acoustic, some more metalcore-ish ones, and some that are just downright brutal. Keeps me on my toes, I love em.
Spotify has all their stuff n-n Their newest two albums were the most popular they've released to date, Extremist and True Defiance. They're pretty good representations of the music. I can leave a couple links if you like u-u
Soft; https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w_zeZVBvGWU
Energetic; https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4HRumpGsiDA
Brutal; https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mDMG82MSXhU
n-n;;
Perhaps it's better this way! ♡
And I'm sorry that you haven't been feeling upto much lately.
Let me know if you ever want/need to talk to someone, my notes are always open. ♡
especially when it's usually out of my hands ;; but yeah ! Sometimes the world just works like that -and hopefully
that makes way for healthier relationships with healthier people !
But thank you so so much for offering an ear - I sure do appreciate that ;v; <333
And I completely understand where you're coming from.
While I don't know what you're going through, personally, I do know that people tend to show their true colors when someone's at a low point in their life.
And if they're not willing to stick around and love you through those times, that's a bad reflection on THEM, not YOU.
My offer will always be there.
Just note me if ever you want/need to. ♡
I hope you feel better Bon <3 If you ever need to talk just shoot me a message on here or on TH!! I understand the cant reply thing.
and!! a friend just got out of ICU so im relieved bc things were pretty bad there for awhile. Work could be better but shrugs. I also get to finally sleep tonight for like 60 years thank god. How are you right now? ;o;
Well, I just started Level II of PC operator (MS Office & TANGO management) and am about to join a PC repair class.
My moodswings and self image have been up and down lately, though that's nothing too unusual. Cheap medication (and the hubby's health insurance) alleviates the brunt of the depression and anxiety (yay for caring too much and not at all at the same time!!). Working from home for a living can be lonely, even with two cats for company, but it beats retail; I absolutely sucked at customer service and juggling multiple administrative tasks @_@
Anyway, try to go easy on yourself when it comes to interacting here. Sometimes responding to comments can be fun and invigorating or mentally and emotionally exhausting. You're loved here all the same. Thank you for sharing with us!