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Consistency, my greatest battle.
8 years ago
Hey everyone, there's been a slight delays in my studies and art (ex, not always having daily studies or weekly illustration completed). I keep setting goals and I'm not always reaching them. And that bugs me because I do wish to create consistency with my uploads on FA and Patreon.
There are a few reasons:
1) My sleeping schedule is a bit of a mess and I have days where I end up choosing between work or being social. I think one day soon I'm gonna have to use meds to knock myself out at night, because currently I work and study at night when everyone else has free time and wants to be social. Juggling work and a social life while being a night owl isn't panning out well. Why do I stay up all night then? Cause I need alone time to be recharge and let the weirdness and creativity flow, and I have a roommate that doesn't work and stays at home all day. Also my SO has high anxiety and will sometimes need me instantly if she has an attack. If that happens I basically lose the rest of the day. I've tried having my computer in other areas of the house but it didn't work out for one reason or another.
2) I can't stress enough my need for alone time. Not being able to easily be isolated for even a few hours so I can draw, write or even game is draining. In May this won't be a problem for my buddy has a full time job and a social life that keeps him out of the house, but up until this point it has been my biggest cause for stress. If I can't get those hours alone on a regular basis, I just shut down and sleep and won't leave my room for half a day. (My weird coping method I've had since I was a teen that I should probably do something about) On a normal day I might get an hour to myself.
3) I've begun sorting and purging through all of my belongings and I just want to get it done. If I can have a dozen or less boxes on moving day that would be great. Other than my bed and desk, I only want to bring my books, games and clothes. Getting rid of a lot of useless crap that's just been sitting in boxes or the basement collecting dust.
Other than those I've developing vision issues over the last few years and only recently can I say it's been affecting my art. I can't do life drawing cause I can't properly see the models and when it comes to drawing people from life, unless I'm close I can only do gestures with confidence, but that's an issue I'll tackle after the move when all the issues above have been dealt with.
I don't normally like to rant online, but I felt like this was something I've been needing to get off my chest for a bit. I just want to be able to draw and upload regularly. Maybe all that I wish to accomplish is too much, but I won't accept that until I can create a more productive work environment for myself.
There are a few reasons:
1) My sleeping schedule is a bit of a mess and I have days where I end up choosing between work or being social. I think one day soon I'm gonna have to use meds to knock myself out at night, because currently I work and study at night when everyone else has free time and wants to be social. Juggling work and a social life while being a night owl isn't panning out well. Why do I stay up all night then? Cause I need alone time to be recharge and let the weirdness and creativity flow, and I have a roommate that doesn't work and stays at home all day. Also my SO has high anxiety and will sometimes need me instantly if she has an attack. If that happens I basically lose the rest of the day. I've tried having my computer in other areas of the house but it didn't work out for one reason or another.
2) I can't stress enough my need for alone time. Not being able to easily be isolated for even a few hours so I can draw, write or even game is draining. In May this won't be a problem for my buddy has a full time job and a social life that keeps him out of the house, but up until this point it has been my biggest cause for stress. If I can't get those hours alone on a regular basis, I just shut down and sleep and won't leave my room for half a day. (My weird coping method I've had since I was a teen that I should probably do something about) On a normal day I might get an hour to myself.
3) I've begun sorting and purging through all of my belongings and I just want to get it done. If I can have a dozen or less boxes on moving day that would be great. Other than my bed and desk, I only want to bring my books, games and clothes. Getting rid of a lot of useless crap that's just been sitting in boxes or the basement collecting dust.
Other than those I've developing vision issues over the last few years and only recently can I say it's been affecting my art. I can't do life drawing cause I can't properly see the models and when it comes to drawing people from life, unless I'm close I can only do gestures with confidence, but that's an issue I'll tackle after the move when all the issues above have been dealt with.
I don't normally like to rant online, but I felt like this was something I've been needing to get off my chest for a bit. I just want to be able to draw and upload regularly. Maybe all that I wish to accomplish is too much, but I won't accept that until I can create a more productive work environment for myself.
You've so much talent and potential, and you deserve to be happy to.
I think you have a great system in place, and just make sure you stick to it, it'll help so much
I'm currently in the process of fixing my sleeping schedule. If I need to get up at 5 in the morning to get the time I need, then I shall. =D And even if I can't I think it will at least solve my work/social life balance issue.