eh
8 years ago
You ever get those times where you feel empty? And you just lay in bed for hours. Doing nothing. Then you get pissed at yourself because of the time you're wasting, but still don't find any motivation for doing anything. So you still just lay around, and wait till you just give up and go to bed early just so the day will be over already.
Ever have those days? They suck.
Ever have those days? They suck.
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I usually get around it by playing Halo for a bit, or some games with friends if any are on and willing to do so.. Or read some of my Touhou comics :3 I might actually be able to sketch something, but it's just loose and quick and rough - which is fine, it's more than nothing and gave me something to do ^^
But most of the time is just spent kinda sitting there waiting for bedtime so ye can just skip ahead to the next day :/
It's odd because... In these cases, I don't really feel depressed or anxious or anything, just... Unmotivated :o It does suck a ton though, yeah....
Yeah, I know what you mean. Just sitting around waiting. Waiting for the next day in hopes it'll be better. Ugh why must unmotivated days be so evil.
Yeah, though sleep is actually kind of enjoyable after a day like that. Get some nice rest~ Though last night and the night before were anything but restful xD I swear the night before was one of those nights where you get some sleep but it FEELS like you're awake the whole time? Like... The only way you could tell you actually got some sleep was because you can remember having some brief dreams, even though it felt like you were jus' tossing and turning the entire night D:
Only problem is I tend to skip the "go to bed to get to the next day" part :v
Stupid insomnia.
I tend to wonder if that's just like... always going to be the case, or if it'll change some day.
Yet I do not lack for motivation, I have my aircraft coursework to put most of my focus on at least, and I have art to fill the remaining "worktime". Hmmm, I do feel that it will be a good while until I can slowly ease myself onto a more involved art schedule that I would like - its difficult for me, especially when my tablet loses its drivers or something else happens that kills my motivation of the "moment".
What can I say, for years I killed my boredom, stress and perhaps depression with games; but the coping methods and curing of such things is different for everyone. I feel I was only truly depressed during the time I was exceptionally ill and shedding like a snake... if not... one in constant pain. Days would just pass me by and I would be thankful for it.