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I am Better-- Rant and update
8 years ago
I know it has only been a week since I said good bye to my baby, my cat, and I am still hurting.. But I am doing better.. I've been sleeping better... I can go in my basement again (his litter box used yo be down there) .. And I'm going to try and sleep in my bed tonight. I haven't been able to go certain places since last Friday in my house because it brought back many memories and it just was too painful.
As some of you know I work in a school helping students learn how to become veterinary assistants and technologists. What some of you don't k ow is we do spaying and neutering for Humane Societies for free so the animals can be well taken care of and the humane society can charge less to adopt out their animals. Or so they can afford more food and area to house more animals...
In any case on Monday we had a very nice little cat come in... And yes I am grieving for my cat still, but there is something about this little cat that struck a cors with me.. To the point I spoke to my family about her. Something in my gut said she would be a perfect new addition to our family.
What you must understand with my family is we have never not had a cat, we have always had one cat in our life... And the empty feeling in our house we all feel now is a bit unbearable to be honest. So when I spoke to my family about her, they wanted to meet this cat. ( My family trusts my intuition about cats and understands I would never bring up taking in a new cat if I did not believe that the cat would fit into our family.)
So today, they came in to meet her, and we've decided to bring her into our home and add her to our family.
WARNING- I do not want to hear that we are replacing my old cat, my baby.. No one will ever, in my life time replace him. He was a one of a kind cat who won my heart the moment I saw his cute little face and blue eyes behind bars at a humane society over 18 years ago. While my parents had been looking at a little black kitten I was looking at him. I tell people all the time, he chose me and my family not the other way around. He was my one comfort.
That being said, this new little girl we will be bringing into our home, she needs love, and my family and I have lots of love to give. She is very sweet and she, when she first came in acted very similar to how my Bandit (old kitty) did. There were too many coincidences that occurred for me to ignore her and my feelings. The night before I had a dream of my old baby telling me he was feeling much better, that he was happy and the one causing things to fall off walls in my room (has been happening since Friday night after he was gone.) and it was okay to move on and be happy. This happened on Monday.
Tuesday the little girl cat came in.. Now I'm all for coincidence but her name given to her (we're changing it) was Gemma.. Which just happens to be the name of the main character of my favorite series of books... And she just happened to come in after that dream... It was just too many coincidences for me to ignore. On top of it, she was sweet and very friendly, and young ( I like to adopt cats 1-2 years old.), and she is also very pretty.
So while I am still mourning, I will be taking this kitty in. Not just to heal me, but to heal her and give her an amazing long happy life..
This is more of a rant than anything so if anyone reads this all, thank you, I know it is long and a bit unorganized babble.
I want to thank the kind words that were said on the previous journal, they did help me process my thoughts and to not spiral into a deeper depression.
As some of you know I work in a school helping students learn how to become veterinary assistants and technologists. What some of you don't k ow is we do spaying and neutering for Humane Societies for free so the animals can be well taken care of and the humane society can charge less to adopt out their animals. Or so they can afford more food and area to house more animals...
In any case on Monday we had a very nice little cat come in... And yes I am grieving for my cat still, but there is something about this little cat that struck a cors with me.. To the point I spoke to my family about her. Something in my gut said she would be a perfect new addition to our family.
What you must understand with my family is we have never not had a cat, we have always had one cat in our life... And the empty feeling in our house we all feel now is a bit unbearable to be honest. So when I spoke to my family about her, they wanted to meet this cat. ( My family trusts my intuition about cats and understands I would never bring up taking in a new cat if I did not believe that the cat would fit into our family.)
So today, they came in to meet her, and we've decided to bring her into our home and add her to our family.
WARNING- I do not want to hear that we are replacing my old cat, my baby.. No one will ever, in my life time replace him. He was a one of a kind cat who won my heart the moment I saw his cute little face and blue eyes behind bars at a humane society over 18 years ago. While my parents had been looking at a little black kitten I was looking at him. I tell people all the time, he chose me and my family not the other way around. He was my one comfort.
That being said, this new little girl we will be bringing into our home, she needs love, and my family and I have lots of love to give. She is very sweet and she, when she first came in acted very similar to how my Bandit (old kitty) did. There were too many coincidences that occurred for me to ignore her and my feelings. The night before I had a dream of my old baby telling me he was feeling much better, that he was happy and the one causing things to fall off walls in my room (has been happening since Friday night after he was gone.) and it was okay to move on and be happy. This happened on Monday.
Tuesday the little girl cat came in.. Now I'm all for coincidence but her name given to her (we're changing it) was Gemma.. Which just happens to be the name of the main character of my favorite series of books... And she just happened to come in after that dream... It was just too many coincidences for me to ignore. On top of it, she was sweet and very friendly, and young ( I like to adopt cats 1-2 years old.), and she is also very pretty.
So while I am still mourning, I will be taking this kitty in. Not just to heal me, but to heal her and give her an amazing long happy life..
This is more of a rant than anything so if anyone reads this all, thank you, I know it is long and a bit unorganized babble.
I want to thank the kind words that were said on the previous journal, they did help me process my thoughts and to not spiral into a deeper depression.
