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8 years ago
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Hey guys, I was wandering if I could get advice from y'all...
I've been having these dreams where they're all about death. They all include my family, my boyfriend and my father which I don't live with or have any contact with him for personal reasons.
But I woke up crying with a panic attack... It's like the 7th time since the start of the year that I've been having these horrid dreams where everyone dies and I'm the last one to.
The last one, last night, I had gone to sleep at around 6am (My bf works at night and so do I)...
The dream started with me working at a shop inside a school, you know those little shops where you can buy snacks and extra school supplies, and it was going all normal till I go deliver something to the classroom next door of the store and the fire alarms go off and we have to stay under the tables until we get the clear. While we were under the tables some sort of "sonic boom"(not the game) sound resonated throughout the whole school and the clouds parted above us with it (Ceiling was made of glass so you could see through) and then after all that we got the clear,
Before all of this happened I had an outfit picked out because in this dream my bf was some sort of artist and he had a showcase after school and he invited me.
I went to get my outfit and to get ready to go to my bf's showcase event and whilst I'm on my way outside I realized I didn't have a car and my mother was the one taking us with my younger sister... and my father.
(Now the thing with my father is that he's very controlling over what he thinks is HIS, this time being my family and the 2 cars we were taking.) My mom decides to drive me and my sister since my dad apparently didn't want to go, but my father being my father (being bipolar and having immense trust issues as well) puts a gps tracker on my moms car (which he has done before) and says that it better stay on the car so he can see if we're lying or not. (The showcase was 5 mins away from the school so he could've gone as well.) My mom decides to rip it off and have an argument with him. My bf somehow show's up and my little sister in a car while I'm trying to calm my parents, he gets inside one of the cars to take my sister away from this mess cuz she's already crying. When he starts to drive he reverses and... my dad walks right behind the car... getting run over. My mother stares with her eyes welling up and her hand on her mouth, shocked, I'm practically the same way.
There's people staring at us and my bf is shocked as well inside the car with my younger sister. He slowly tries to drive forward again and some sort of scissor blade thing under the car activates and starts dismembering my father and this is where my mom and I start screaming. My lil sis is crying inside the car confused and my bf is having a panic attack, he couldn't handle the weight and he killed himself inside the car with my younger sister still inside and my mom falling unconscious next to me... That's when I woke up screaming in my panic attack with my bf sleeping next to me...
I was so scared to go back to sleep... But an hour from crying I knocked out again until 4pm...
This dream wasn't as bad as others but for some reason I woke up crying the most... It is 6:30pm and my eyes still burn from crying...
I don't know what they mean...
If this were my dream, I might ask myself if there was something "alarming" that I was worrying about, something that "resonates" with me in waking life, that might be affecting me on an unconscious level, or maybe I do know what it might be, because I can see it clearly through the glass? I'm protecting myself by getting under the tables, maybe shielding myself from an emotional event, or trigger?
Ripping out the GPS, maybe means I don't want to be controlled, or I don't want someone to know where I'm going/what I'm doing in my life. I wonder if my bf is doing something/reversing directions, and my father's controlling nature is getting in the way of things? Maybe my me or my bf said something that really "cut up" my father emotionally? Or perhaps the dismembering of limbs is symbolic of taking away his control? Or perhaps my father purposely got in the way, and this is some way he's trying to let go of his controlling ways?
Hmm, I don't know. This one is tough for me to analyze. Only you can really say what these dreams mean to you.