Like that, another year around the sun and another year older. Its kind of a weird one cause this is the last year of being in my 20s and I sure as shit have been feeling it more than I would like to!

This year shall prove to be a big one if all works out as planned, school has gone incredibly well, had you told me I was gonna not only be in school but holding some of the highest marks of everyone in that course this time last year, I would have told ya to find something a lill more funny to joke about. But here I am and the facts speak for themselves.

I aint 100% sure what this all will mean in the end aside the potential to land a decent job and make respectable money. I swore to myself I would not turn into one of those boring, lets talk about our jobs over some coffee, type furries... But so far I have really dug the stuff I do, using my claws to fix things instead of just playing Mr Install Wizzard for old women is a nice change of pace. But I feel that life pressure none the less.

The downside here is my passion for the fandom has taken a lotta hits over the years and I find myself enjoying it less and less because what its become socially. Those who know me well know this entire topic already but, as of the last few years it feels like all that really drives me is the fact I got a rooted identity in my draconity and my art and a little bit in my sexuality. All of which have allowed me to express myself and were the biggest things I reveled in. But what I have come to realize is I expected too much out of the fandom for what it really was. As I get older this only seems to get worse because it was like I was expecting the fandom to grow with me, but the fandom is ageless its always been teenager and early 20s paradise. I just fell outta the bracket through the course of time. My old-ways otherkin and furry identifiers are not something that's widely shared anymore and the people I do find who I really relate to and enjoy the most are usually not in the fray of the mainstream fandom. I often feel like I know the cheat codes to being popular in this era of the fandom, but I am far too stubborn to use them to my advantage because it feels like a gross betrayal of myself and what I actually am inside. So that being said, I think I might just do what I do, ART! So lovers of all things draconic and adult do not despair!

Jesus shit, that was a big load of brain dumping for a birthday update journal