So, I suppose I'm using this really as a way to vent...I've had such a bad day today. Anything that could have went wrong did. My depression flared its ugly head again. I was trapped with thoughts of being useless and amounting to nothing but failure.

Work continued to stress me out. Boss wanting me to do a needless task that wasn't due till end of month and then pushing me to force my employees to do it as well to which I get no support from.

Then my boss tells me that he is going to hire someone to compete with me for my executive position because I missed a few insignificant things....someone outside the company who's never worked a day of his life and could potentially take away all my hard work this past year and cruise on it.

People constantly abuse my kindness and use me for their own gain.... then being a disappointment to my family at home makes my home life difficult.

I feel like I'm in a box suffocating in water. Maybe I am useless and doomed to be abused and fail. I don't know....I honestly feel like breaking down and crying....

I don't even know why I'm writing this... it isn't anyone else's problem...I guess it feels good to just write it instead of bottling it inside like I have done for 25 years.

Sorry for wasting your time if you've read this.... I tend to be annoying....despite my best efforts. Hope you all enjoy your day/night.