i know exactly how you feel.... I know just how hard it can be when you hate how you are.. and i wish i could give better advise then "don't care what others think" because i know its what you see that bothers you... But i can tell you you're beautiful. And there are people out there who love you for the way you are and want nothing but to support you in where you want to go, and how you want yourself to be. It's ok to loose motivation because when you regain it, you'll fight back even stronger <3 Keep your head up... i wish i had better words to help you, but i understand just how you feel. Take your time, and gradually make changes where you can. Know that even if they aren't quick, there will be subtle changes and the steps you take will help you feel better and proud of yourself, and don't let anyone push you down for trying <3

My mom was the same way to me and pushed me down more times then i can count. I've still lost no weight, and continue to gain it, but my husband has been encouraging me, and loving me, even through my hate. If you have someone like that hold them close. If you can't see them, they are out there i promise. If you do what you can, always be proud of every step <3

I wish I knew a good way to console you and convince you to be pleased with yourself but I don't have a good way to phrase it.
So I would say this, be proud of yourself and work hard to be pretty in your own eyes not in anyone elses. What others think of you is unimportant unless you make it important. However I imagine you'll likely just roll your eyes and say that that doesn't help. So on a more practical note, perhaps an indoor cycling machine would help? I've heard you can get a lot of exercise in a very short time on those once you get your body trained for it. Also perhaps some of the exercise furs on here could give you some tips and advice for ways you can tone yourself down more effectively given your time limit?
Regardless, I hope you can find strength in yourself either from your own fortitude or from those of us who believe in you :)

we have one of those, but its in the living room, just like the other thing.
and everytime i use it my mom comments on it and its just rlly shitty

especially because shes the one who starved herself to be skinny because she also has hypothyroidism, but keeps telling me that it cant be that illness because im taking the pills for it.

Ok. That's just not true. My ex had hyperthyroidism (as did her mother), she dieted to the point of starvation (mainly because she'd just forget to eat) and I still watched her gain well over 150 pounds in about a year and a half mind you she's maybe 5'3" it all depends on the individual, so what worked for your mother may not work for you. Now I'm not saying you should expect to gain that much (I don't know how long you've had the condition and how bad it is) but the point being you are you and she is her. You need to put your own expectations (preferably realistic ones) ahead of what she expects. Don't let her get in the way of your future. I know that a parents negative response can ruin your life. So let me be the first to tell you that if you want to grow up happy, sometimes you have to learn to ignore the negativity of your loved ones. A lot of the time they're projecting their own insecurities on to their children, and that's what this sounds like. So you need to try to work past it and do what is best for you, not for what is best for your mother's perception of you.

hypo*
hyperthyroidism is a thing to, but its the opposite. your thyroid works too much then xD sry for this one but i just had to

I've had the condition since i was born. because my mom gave it to me. without checking until i was 6
but also i rlly want to lose weight and i was pretty motivated to try harder to do so. now i just dont want to do anything anymore. and that makes me even more mad because by telling me i "need" to lose weight she achieves the opposite
and its the same with so many situations
school, work, anything i have to do in general

Sorry, I was using my phone and thats what it autocorrected to.

All I can suggest at that point is to trudge through it. Keep going until it gets better. Because in the end that's really all you can do. Keep going day by day and hope it starts feeling better, or let it eat at you.
Not to say breaks can't help though if that what you think you need. But if its more of a long term thing. *shrugs* All we can do is to keep trying.

true.

Well, as an eternally thin person, I can only say that I never really looked down on people who weren't perfectly fit or slim. I'm pretty sure You're Your own worst enemy here, judging Yourself so much to the point where You hate Yourself just becasue of Your body. Stress also makes people gain weight D: And You really can't stress too much over this! It's just the looks so far! But if You go to a whole next leve, it will dominate Your live, shorten it and make You miserable fulltime!

Just try Your best, and don't be such a strict judge. People have problems like this all around. I have a lot of overweight friends. they can't loose weight, either to diabetes or just becasue they don't have the time to excersize that much.
Soon You will be out of school and will be able to do more of what You want with Your free time and excersize and all! Just try to smile and not hate Yourself! It's really not that hard :) You're in this body for the rest of Your live, You need to comunicate with it and learn to work with it, just the way it is~!