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Been taking things easy because my heart issues have been getting more intense, and for those who don't know (aka mostly everyone aside from a few), I've always had pretty unusually painful, long, and often heart palpitations on a daily basis. I used to think they were just normal after they got worse and my friends noticed and pointed how unusual and worrying it was, and were shocked I never saw a doctor about them. I have really obnoxious nerve issues too, but I've learned to live with them and don't find it as impending as the heart thing and have long given up on getting a doc to actually hear me about it. I've seen different doctor multiple times about both issues, only to be shooed out the door shortly after showing up and paying the $20 visit fee and waiting in their room for atleast 15 mins each time, so I've honestly given up on getting help for my conditions. I've often feared others wouldn't take me seriously aswell, which is why I've rarely ever brought up that these were even actual issues for me, especially publicly like this. I've already settled with just working around them somehow, tho it really does make things a lot more difficult to keep work, even just art wise like it is now.

I MAY see a doc about my heart issue now that it's getting as severe as it is, these palpitations are starting to affect my right side when they go off now, and it's giving me flashbacks to when that panic attack that put me in the ER almost stopped my heart, so I am getting pretty worried about it. Excitement has always exacerbated them and their likeliness to happen, which makes since because of how it effects blood flow and the level of effort the heart is working in. So basically I'm staying as chill as possible, even happy feelings are bad if they're not mellow, I should be fine keeping this in mind for now, but I'll prob try seeking medical help for it again when I've gotten my driver's permit test out of the way, and fixed whatever's wrong with my foot. It hurts really bad when I walk, whenever my left big toe is bent, and it's been like this for a good few months now, severity seems to be based on the level of pressure applied to it.

So yeah, with all this going on it's effecting how much I can draw, but I'm still pushing to get as much as I can done, so no worries I'm still working, I'm just worried it may be slowing me down, so I felt you guys were deserving of knowing what's going on with me. Hope you guys are going okay, and that you'll stay as patient and understanding with me as you all have been with me so in recent years~! u wu <3333

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