Edit: Okay, I think I'll try to go to AC next year. Don't let me change my mind!

So here's what I think.

I either suck it up and go to a god damn furry con again.

Or I give it up with this nonsense because
it's driving me crazy!!!

You people make it impossible to happily participate in the furry community online and refrain from going to conferences because they always sound so freakishly fun. It's like torture to just sit here and read about these things time after time and never even consider going.

I am gonna have to shrug off my pride or embrace it
but not both waaah.

Not that I'm actually complaining about reading about cons or seeing pictures. I'm just jealous.

Go with my natural instinct to accept and trust and love and have fun and not be ashamed of myself
Or fight day in and day out to have every random person who sees me on the bus or street or mall think I'm a normal maybe kind of pretty person, which ends up creating this judgemental sentiment in me all the time, because if everyone is judging me, I am judging them. And I hate that about myself right now. I don't want to judge or be judged.

I mean clearly I am posting this personal dilemma on FA because I am biased towards the option that all of you would be biased towards.

:|
Glad y'all had fun, though!