i've been thinking about a lot of stuff as of late. Which I figured why not let it all out in a fa journal, seems legit o3o ''

but..

after i finish up my commissions and art trades, i might just leave. Or take a break, not from just this site, but everything. The internet, My Youtube account. everything. Might also take a couple week break from skype.

Things are just getting to me right now ,and it hasn't really been the best couple of months either, that being online, in real life, and with my own issues.

I know this isn't true, but some times I just feel un wanted and that im a huge burden to people, which i don't want. idk, I figured it would be better if i took a break from the internet?
But at the same time, it wouldn't make a difference considering half the shit going wrong is in my own house hold.
emotionally abusive mother, who wishes she never adopted me ( told me that many times ) , an ass hole abusive brother, who does damage emotionally, and physically, an abusive sister who doesn't really give two shits about me. The only one that actually cares about me, is my dad. But sadly, he doesn't have much time to live..

I get called names every day i go into work by people out side, who think there cool. One of them called me a hipster lesbo, i kinda laughed at that xD

I could go on and on internet, i really could. Maybe i'm thinking about all of this, because a date is coming up in which a close friend of mine died in. who knows.


anyways, i guess that's it for now.

Bye internet.

*EDITED
i just got woken up to my "mother" yelling at my niece and saying she hurt her feelings, cause she wont help out, doesn't listen, has no responsibilities , does nothing around the house bleh bleh BITCH shes fucking 7 years old! made her cry hard core like.. WTF she gets that enough from her actual mother.