hah, you know.. that's the first place where i can really talk and show all the feelings.
even those of them i can't tell my friends (but welllll actually i even don't know who i can name a "friend" now...... hhhahhhhh)

that's so important for me that i can just
write and blow away all these feelings?
and there are people who DO CARE ?

every time you leave a comment or even give advice and support!
i'm so happy.. even cried couple of times because of that, hah, because that was too unexpectable after real world.. ?


i'm also too scared to answer you in comments, so.. sorry, i wish i could do it.

thank you again.
i really appreciate you all.
(i want to say "sorry" again and many times, but i feel like that's too much already for these days)