So there have been a lot of things I've been thinking about lately. I suppose I should categorize these.

Relationships
I suppose it's safe to say I've completely given up on this. Why? Because I'm ALWAYS the one on the side-lines waiting to be tagged in. And waiting forever. This realization hit me when I watched a stupid movie called 'Mummy, I'm a Zombie!' and one of the characters basically said EXACTLY what I was feeling. Someone once told me 'we have all our lives' but... no, we don't. You never know when something is going to happen to someone. And the fact that I was RIGHT THERE in front of this person and they just let me drift way without a second thought... well, it hurts.
There was more than that and more than one person and I finally realized (after a long time of watching these people fawn over others while I waited for just a scrap of attention) that... honestly I really shouldn't care.
It's stupid to sit around waiting for someone. So I wont anymore. There are other things I could be doing with my time. Things that make me WAY happier. I suppose that in a weird way this makes me kind of a loner. Bu you know what? Being alone and okay with it is better than being lonely and begging for attention.

Health
Super excited for this one. Like I mentioned before, I signed up fora couple of 5k runs coming up in a few months. Well, tonight my roomie and I decided to walk to see if we could manage a 5k in our current condition... and we accidentally walked 10k instead. AKA 6 miles. We did this in roughly 2 hours, and that was us just walking at our normal pace. I've been non-stop watching Disney Marathon videos, and people who do this all the time were averaging about an hour and a half or so JOGGING a 10k. So I feel like we did pretty damn good.

Debt
Oh man this is a big one for me. But I've got an appointment with someone on Monday to try and file for bankruptcy. Between my credit cards (one of which I paid off but is insisting that I still owe them money), my personal loan, and the stupid dentist loan (that I still owe despite the fact that all they've done is mess up my teeth), I've been drowning REALLY badly lately. So much so that the stress has been completely crushing me and keeping me from drawing, among other things.
Well, hopefully on Monday I'll know if I can get all of this just cleared out. Yeah, it'll ruin my credit, but it can't really get any worse than it already is right now. This will be a clean slate. No debt whatsoever. I'll finally be able to afford to LIVE and not have to beg people for gas money or for help when my bank account overdrafts. I seriously can't wait for this and have really high hopes.

Job
As I think I mentioned in my last journal, I quit the job that was giving me so much stress. I've nearly competed the transition into my new job. At this point it'll just take getting used to it. It's strange how it still doesn't feel real. I'm out of training, I'm doing my job, and I don't absolutely hate doing it. Yeah there are some awkward or weird moments, but what job DOESN'T have those? My last job made me feel like there was something wrong with me. The people at THIS job keep telling me how great I'm doing and how impressed they are with me.
I can't get over how good that feels and how relieved I am.

Overall this year really is starting to look up. One money things even out, I should be able to afford healthier food and the roomie and I will be able to start properly fixing our house up. It's all really exciting! So here's to hoping that things go well.

Just do me a favor and send all of your good vibes~~~~~~~~
(Just don't say 'Good Luck' because that's actually bad luck lol XD)