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8 years ago
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even the darkest of nights can be beautiful if you know where to look
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even the darkest of nights can be beautiful if you know where to look
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Sometimes it feels like I would serve the world better if I never woke up... or if my existance was over. I swear. it's hard to live. especially when nothing you do means anything in the long run. the people you love will forget about you before to long after your gone. the things that you did will fade away in time. hell even your name will lose all meaning before to long. so what's the point in living? sometimes I wonder if just trying to stay alive is worth the pain I live with everyday. just so the ones I care about don't hurt. heh. guess I'm a masochist after all...who knew.
To me, that would tell me that you gave up, not only on yourself, but your friends too and those that are your true friends have failed to be there to support you and make sure you're okay. Granted, I know that friends over the internet can't really do much, but we can still check up on you, which I haven't done and I feel very bad about that. You can't survive alone in this world. I can't survive alone. No one can. We NEED people around, one way or another. The only way I can ever forget you, is if my memory got wiped. That's not happening any time soon. There's still some people I remember that I've met in life. Some good, some I'm not so fond of and such. I've had that mindset you have several times. Why bother when it's going to be wiped away later? The point is to enjoy the here and now, what you can of it. Who cares about the distant future? We're not going to be around to see it. For now though, we need to be enjoying our time here, making the best of it.
Remember, if you ever want to talk privately, you know how to, bud. *hugs* It's tough, but I try to distract myself with games and YouTube. Usually works for me. There has to be effort from you as well to help better yourself. All we can do is support you. We can't do everything for you. No one can do everything for me. I mean, why would i have someone carry me to the bathroom to poop? But in seriousness, you need to try to make the best of things and have friends there that can help cheer you up. I hate seeing you like this. You and I both need to try to help deal with this. I don't want you hurting yourself.
Bel, I would deeply miss you as you were the person that introduced me to pony play, something I don't think I would have ever let myself enjoy or even tried on my own. The few times we have rped together, you made those experiences so enjoyable for me and I remember those fun times...we really should rp again sometime.
I know I am not the best person in starting a conversation, something I have been trying to put to thought every day...just a simple, "hey" or "hi", something to show acknowledgement. You are cared for, very deeply by your friends, if not by anyone else...even if we can't do much other than offer virtual hugs and kind words.