I feel I'm starting to become a failure in being a friend. I keep screwing up with some of my best friends. In more ways than one. It's happened on numerous occasions now, and I don't want to do it anymore.

Part of me just wants to leave them be, permanently for their own good, but part of me doesn't. Even my mate has had enough of it too. I've lost my touch completely. I've pretty much just completely changed. I've become spiteful and hateful towards others and I don't want to be like that, but I dunno. Just... I've changed, dramatically over the last few months.

One moment I'm really nice but then I just change and become really horrible. I don't want this. I don't want to lose friends, but I've already cleared 90% of my friends on steam because of it. I feel like I had to because I don't want to fuck up with any of them either. I just really need help!