So I am going to share some links showing exactly what I been through for months now..health included.

This Journal talks about my health issues, in which are not something I'm in a financial bind over..but they have caused me some extra stress. Click For Journal. I don't know what's going on completely still and I've had to miss multiple appointments and re-do some..I am seeing my OBGYN for an ultrasound soon (7th of this coming up month) to see if I have something going on such as cysts on my overies. I have depression, anxiety, bipolar, and personality disorder and currently I am not on my medication but I normally take two different types of medicine for some of my problems they are - Paroxetine and Lamotrigine.

So with my health being all funky it makes my mental illnesses worse? Its rather..aggravating..to say the least..its like a constant battle between the two and me over-thinking and over worrying.

I also live in a terrible apartment complex, terrible. I've tried raising money to get out of this place previously but I just gave up as I wasn't getting any help what so ever..I had two people donate to the fundraiser one being my little brother. But I just couldn't handle keeping up with it anymore as I was getting further and further disappointed..watching other friends of mine get hundreds if not thousands of dollars to their needs..was just making me feel worse and worse..and I felt guilty for feeling this way. This is my donation page: Donation Page I tried going through Lend a Hand back then and I am going to try again..as I am completely desperate.

I've lived here for over a year now, and nothing much has changed for good.

They FINALLY fixed the laundry mat downstairs from being destroyed last year in the fall. I been hand washing mine and my roommates clothes constantly outside and recently I was being harassed by a neighbor saying I can't do what I was doing..washing my clothes..and threatened to report us. She claimed to me that the washers and dryers were replaced a month ago..A MONTH AGO..and that "everyone" got a notice on their doors..well we did not receive anything like this at all. So I was dumbfounded..and in disbelief until we went down stairs. Of course this was little to late as we have no means of washing our clothes downstairs until the first of the month.

My roommates futon is now gone as he's a big guy, and now he's sleeping on the floor once more..mine is getting there but I found away to fix it so I can still sleep on a bed. We have absolutely NO WAY of replacing our beds..or getting at least a mattress. We both are on SSI so we get a small amount of money each month to survive off of..it is almost impossible to save anything.

I do have pets, but they are well taken care of..honestly probably better then myself..however they are here as a sorta therapy to myself. I had two children who are both adopted out and they do fill that void..and has nothing to do with my situation at hand...but they help ease a lot of stress.

The people who own the building have no office on site, its elsewhere and they own many other properties. Section 8 people came out here and had to basically write some things that were wrong about this apartment..and THAT finally got their attention..to at least fix our leaking water in the bathtub when we shower..Oh but will they fix the stove that smokes and we can only use ONE of the eyes, and the dishwasher in which has been out a better part of the year..hm..nope.

I have proof of a lot of our issues in this apartment at my fundraising page..its just..a number of issues one after another..NEEDLESS TO SAY..and I think I covered everything here. I'd love it if me and my roommate both can get into a better living situation. We've talked about different options but we just can't do it on our own from the get go. Rent isn't an issue, its getting there and paying for the initial stuff..let alone replacing our beds..getting actual furniture which we don't have at all of..etc.

Any help seriously is so..so appreciated..I'm going to try and do this once again..cause I am just..desperate. We both are. I don't do art very well, and I'm constantly stressed out so its hard to concentrate on art as it is..I just need some help.

Thank you.

If you want to donate to my fundraiser feel free too or to my paypal: frisky_shibuiro_neko[at]live.com just please let me know if you've done so, privately or here in the comments below so I can personally thank you.