HUGE thanks to everyone who has done commissions with me <3 Being able to draw and at the same time support myself is unreal to be honest. It gives me some wiggle room to do stuff I enjoy, since all my money generally goes to not starving and school related fees. For example, I've been able to treat myself by going to a semi-fancy resturant with a few friends, and it has given me a sense of security :^)
(really though, thanks alot to everyone)

Another thing, there’s a feeling that I’ve never been able to describe, lets call it “the” feeling. A feeling of hopelessness mixed with hope, a feeling of sadness yet brightened by the sense of not being able to do shit about it (I have no idea why that would brighten it up). The feeling is very similar to nostalgia, but it's not triggered by looking back on memories; rather when I listen to music, very specific melodies. Why this happens is unknown to me, I’m not even sure if this makes sense. It's the same feeling that arises when a troublesome event has taken place, but it's alright. You've solved it, yet you still feel that lump in your tummy. The feeling is painful, it’s like the start of a mild anxiety attack, yet, I still seek out to experience it. I love the music that triggers the feeling.

I don't know why anyone would read this though, but hey, thanks for making it this far :*