Honest Question
8 years ago
Why do you bother watching me?
I don't post or draw personal work or characters.
I don't stream.
i don't do trades or give much free art away.
My colors and anatomy are okay but not great.
I don't feel innovative, i don't get to know people very well, i don't communicate well.
i don't feel deserving of anything.
It just feels like all my effort is just a grand waste of time.
I just wanna curl up into a ball so it might just be depression again. . .
I don't post or draw personal work or characters.
I don't stream.
i don't do trades or give much free art away.
My colors and anatomy are okay but not great.
I don't feel innovative, i don't get to know people very well, i don't communicate well.
i don't feel deserving of anything.
It just feels like all my effort is just a grand waste of time.
I just wanna curl up into a ball so it might just be depression again. . .
And it's not -why- I watched you, but I was absolutely thrilled when you picked my character and prompt for a freebie. That picture is my favorite anyone has done of that character. <3
But honestly? I'd love to see some personal art of yours too. You've gotta have some you time y'know?
I watch your page because i like the expressions you draw and the anatomy may not be 100% (mine is terrible too and I ref ALOT) but you do your best to make it work. Sure, you don't get to draw OCs very often, but they're fun to see when it happens.
I have the same mess of self doubt and inferiority issues. Artists who followed my art when they first started are now my my senpai. They're doing so many awesome things....and i just can't.
I don't have the inspiration to come up with amazing things like they can.
I don't have a group of fans that can support me the way some of them have. I would never be able to give up my job to art.
My creativity is poop. And even when i try to set goals for myself, i fall short more often than not.
But i enjoy when i can get some doodling done. Even when I'm being a grump, sometimes all i want to do is doodle, even if i can't figure out what i want to do. It's difficult. Depression makes it worse.
I hope it gets better for you. There's far too much in this journal that sounds like me. Don't be me. Keep making your own cool work for commissions or yourself. Just do it! I'll try to do it too!
so a lot of people don't
2 you don't steam
i dont think i hava ever watched a stream and not had it bug out so that is over rated
3 you don't do trades or give much free art away.
ya trades are fine tho if you don't want what the other person has there's no reason to trade. as for free are people who want free anything to me are just bizarre i mean if im going to have someone do something for me there is no way i want it for free
4 your colors and anatomy are okay but not great.
i think they are
5 you don't feel innovative, you don't get to know people very well, you don't communicate well.
you are innovative in more ways then most in my opinion. how do you get to know someone well over the internet i shear cant. just the fact that you maid this post tells me you know how to communicate better than most
6 you don't feel deserving of anything
i know how this feels but i can tell you this every one of your 16000+ watches you are so totally deserving of
I think thats pretty obvious!
I feel what you are feeling all the time. its worries me to see it from an artist that is light years ahead of me in every aspect. Shudders...
Most people already pointed that out, you got tons of watchers, im pretty sure all of those appreciate your work and are eager to see more, I know I am. And those watchers didnt appear because they pittied you, you earned them with your skill.
You can do great things - you just have to pick yourself up to do them.
I DO however understand depression. far to well. I can't art. I don't music. I'm not talented. I'm not good at anything (except pissing people off, I'm "great" at that). and then I come here and see someone like you who can with the arts. you have a pressure release valve for your inner deamons. you can express your soul in graphical nature. You Can Make ART. dude, I wish I could.