I've had enough.
8 years ago
Ever since I came home from college in April life has been miserable. I still live with my parents since I'm 19 and this shit country is too expensive rent wise. Anyway my parents are both alcoholics and fight CONSTANTLY. It's been like this for years but since I left for college I didn't have to deal with it but now I do until I go back but that isnt for ages. My dad is at the bar every single day and my mam stays in drinking every night and they butt head like there's no tomorrow and drag me into them. I have begged them and spoke to them so many times to get help but they won't recognise they have a problem and refuse to get help. I begged them to get marriage counselling, to get counselling for their alcoholism atleast but no. No no no. I am constantly pouring wine bottles down the sink, my dad screams at me everytime he comes home from work and pisses off to the bar. I feel I have relationship with him. My little brother is 15 and has to live with this while I'm away. My depression is back and getting worse by the day. I don't have friends around here, my only friend lives 3 hours away and I can't even drive so there's no escape. Please, does anyone have any advice on trying to help this? I'm naturally a caring and helpful person and I constantly try to help people but being so involved in this is destroying my happiness. I just can't deal with it anymore. I'm getting nothing done either. I just hate this shitty life.
EDIT: Their families are no help either. My aunts and uncles like to brush shit under the carpet and get on with their own lives. Ive asked for help many times.
EDIT: Their families are no help either. My aunts and uncles like to brush shit under the carpet and get on with their own lives. Ive asked for help many times.
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Sadly live can be hard and the clear answer is always hard to find im still sometimes struggeling myself however i feel sometimes its just worth it in the hope that there is someday where stuff improves and in certain ways it did.
Of corse you can figure I'd rather not go into specifics about my issues, because thats to personal to present on a page everyone can read, but I can that for sure try to find things about live that exite you keep you going sure alot of bullshit happens in live, but when you have good times with friends or expirance something new or even more get to a new stage of life stuff can change for the better and well giving up does never help as shitty as things are sometimes.
If you want to go more into details feel free to drop me a note and such like i said on an open page such topics can be abit hard.
If it comes to missery sadly im quite an expert there more then id like to.
But with abit of black humor sometimes stuff gets easier to swallow.
When you're Irish. It's the norm. :'(