Hi readers!

So, it has been some time since last I posted much of anything on here and for that I feel I owe a bit of an explanation. Life has been presenting me with a myriad of ups and downs in terms of success and failures; struggles and rewards.

I officially have been taking andro-blockers to start my transition for about a month now. As soon as my blood pressure equalizes better I will be starting estrogen as well.

I'm more or less homeless as of late. While technically I still live with my mom doing so involves constant degradation, belittling, and being told that if I can't be a cis, straight male then I have no place in her home. So, as such, I've spent more than a few nights living out of my car as doing so it ultimately less stressful than living at home.

I am starting school this fall with uncertain living situations. It requires me moving across state to be in the same area as my college but I will be attending full time. I just have to find a job and shit at the same time so I can be a full time employee and full time student. Writing will be done as often as it can.

In the same breath my mother also told me once I move any of my possessions I don't take with me will be tossed into the trash before I have time to come back and get them. She wants to remove any aspect of me from her life but says it's all because of me. She's the victim of all things in life and everything I do to better myself is just another way that I am abusing her.

So that's more or less my life. Daily stress. Depression. Suicidal ideations once in a while. Then, hidden between all the dark and the shit, is the periodic bright moment that keeps me moving forward.

Thank you to everyone who has been paitent with me. For those I owe commissions to you may send me a note if you wish a refund and I will get it to you as soon as I have the funds free to do so.


Thank you all again,

E. S. Lapso