Now, before you all start panicking, let me explain.

I haven't been inspired much to draw....pretty much anything....

Mainly cause I have so many works that I owe people that I just cant keep my motivation up enough to work on them.... its stressful, and every time I open the file I see how little progress I've made to complete it AND just makes me close the program so I don't look at my own shame....

I'm a sad excuse for an artist that owes so much and cant even get a simple thing done..... ranging from a simple commission to a gift art....... or an art trade......

I try, and try, and try.......but it never seems good enough......

to the point that i just wanna refund everybody that took a commission from me. I don't deserve something I'm not working for or on....

I don't wanna seem like a moocher to anyone....needing money, promising a commission, and never deliver.....

I don't wanna be like that..... I HATE getting money I didn't deserve......

So to clear my head on what to do, I'm gonna back off for a few days to get my thoughts straight on what action to take. If I do refund people, it wouldn't be right away since I'm currently unemployed and looking for work, possibly even a little extra to people who have been waiting a long time for something from me.

I don't wanna have a bad reputation over this. Being an artist, getting commissioned and just leaving like some artists have done. I wanna own up to what I have done wrong, which has been making people wait for works from me when I really should have no excuse for it.

So yeah, I'm gonna step away or a while to gather my thoughts on what to do. I just hope I'll be forgiven.....

And given a second chance when the time is right....