It been a very disappointing year for me and my whole family
but everything gotten better for them.

But my depressions isn't helping me
as it was a nightmare this year...
mostly this year isn't gonna be forgotten.

I feel sadness, hopeless and hate.
I just want to quit everything all together,
but at the same time I don't.

It been a nightmare of a ride this year...
I've just could been scarred from of it,
and still being in this awful moment trying to recover from it
but at the same time... I don't know

It could be my ADHD plus Depression kicking in?
but I don't know.

Part of me kinda feel like falling in a endless void,
and wanting to fall forever,
then sink into water, just sleeping at the bottom of floor.