this comment i have here...its..i dunno i feel uneasy..i dont know why but something about you not wanting to talk directly to me is making feel off...i know it sounds silly and dramatic , but if people cant talk to me..than why should i bother posting these things?..i barley have any regular contact with anyone here as is so "j" (wont post your name you used) if your reading please...just put me at ease , i WANT to talk to you ..

i know im being idiotic but this just makes me feel like im being watched from afar by people but never spoken to...

and yes my condition probably contributes alot to it but yea...i needed to put something out there i guess or whatever...

guys im not unapproachable...i wanna feel like i have people ic an talk to i want ...friends..people that give me a reason to be ehre other than to check notifications..

copied and edited from last journal


as i said in my last journal i have an account there

http://www.thiscrush.com/~jwheeler94

now last week i got my first comment (Thank you whoever it is )

however thats what i wanna ask , who are you , you left your name (real or fake i dunno) on the comment

i assume its on of you guys as you mentioned my character sharing the same name in the comment and this is the only place ive posted my link

look , whoever you are , please dont hide from me im a very approachable person and would love to know if anyone thinks this way of me

i really cant stand these situations where someone said something but i dunno who it makes my anxiety bad (not my fault) cause my brain goes into overdrive detective mode XD

i wont give the name of the person for their privacy but if your reading , please dont hide from me ^^ id love to talk to new people and have more contact with people here outside of the small few i do