Because I don't know where to begin this may seem out of the blue, I tend to leave life stuff outside of the internet, and I tend to like to deal with things on my own and not bother any of my watchers with this sort of stuff.

But to put it simply things have not been well since May with losing my job at PetSmart. I tried getting Lab Tech positions with CU and other science related position that I had found on Indeed and virtually none of those were successful, and the two potential ones I had were not what I expected after the interviews, which meant of course the interviewers could tell that I was not going to be a good fit. Since then I started trying to look into retail, and so far nothing there, but I thought I had a stroke of luck starting a job at Aqua Imports and starting Lyft. I like Aqua Imports, it is different and interesting, and I get to work with a much broader variety of fish and reptiles, but some of the standards are a little different, the big kicker is that I like Lyft, but with only 16 rides given and few low star rating means that it is not going as well as I had hoped and it didn't help that the first two weeks were just bad due to issues with the SIM card in my phone. Now that I have done both for a few weeks and have been looking for other work with little success; I may have to cave and work for Petco, which from what I have heard from former employees there, it is kind of iffy overall compared to PetSmart. Oh not to mention that earlier this week I had to pay 800 dollars to fix my cars engine and my suspension, and with how little I am making and needing to pay rent, I quite literally broke and even more literally at the end of my rope with being expected to keep to a timeline for moving out that I do not believe I can keep to, so I may be getting kicked out soon, and this was accelerated thanks to needing to call the cops [long story short; an argument got physical and the only reason I can stay is because I pay rent], and that is in relation to not finding work, which is in relation to what happened at PetSmart back in May.

This brings me to the next order of things going on my life and that i was more than willing to move on and bury the hatchet so to speak back in and May and just find better work. Back then there was a lot of information that I found out had been shared and a lot of other info that was not shared during the whole event and I decided to not share it because I didn't want to cause more issues than there already were, nor did I to potentially ruin someone else's career with PetSmar; in part because I still cared and in part because I didn't think it would ultimately matter. And now I recently found out that...defamatory comments are being made about me still and with peoples who really were not involved and have no business knowing. So much for letting it go, right? There is a number of reasons I find this rather troubling, because I and the other people involved know the full truth and I am sure information is being twisted to vilify me, and I really hope karma eventually does it thing or that the person will do the right thing.

Right now I am just kind of at a loss. I will not go into detail about what happened back in May, please don't ask. I absolutely hate drama, and I hate that it is still following me around as it is. I wanted it to be done and over with and for it to go away and just move on, but apparently I can't because I cannot tell if my professional career has gone down the drain.

Just needed to get this out, will likely delete in a few days.