I'm still tossing about the idea if I want to go or not this year. On one hand I want to get a chance to suit, but the last two years have been bad for me. Everyone I try to make plans with initially say they want to do stuff, but when it comes down to it, I'm just forgotten about. I don't like feeling put of place more than I already do, and I'm just afraid this year will be more of the same. I don't know.... I just wish I didn't feel like this