*Sigh*

I really am envious of all of you. I really am, as it gives me a minor panic attack, or anxiety reaction after seeing your happy faces. However, I still posses something that will reverse this cycle, and make you become envious of me. I have the knowledge of building new worlds, of understanding the fundamentals of reality, and replicating something that's unique, creative, intelligent, but, I don't have the tools to create it yet.

WHILE YOU

Will always be a fantasy, an illusion of anthropomorphism.

Am I attacking you? I really don't want to, I just want a friend to talk to, but I just can't speak out by messaging you in the shout box, you just ignore that as spam. I really don't understand who I'm becoming, as isolation can drive you insane, but I still have the knowledge and awareness of how you will respond.

You might block me, which please don't
You might tell me to get a real life, I can't anxiety forces me back to isolation
You might say talk to my psychologist
You might say why I'm sending mix signals
You might actually PM me [Please Do]
You might say what's the knowledge that I know?
You might insult me for being egocentric, that's selfish to think of your self and needs. Or being an attention whore

Or, you will just call me crazy. Which I pretty am actually, will socially that's. Ever heard of a mad scientist? :)

Does it matter anyways? This message will not be read or spread.

I'm just going to block all those who I envy, so that they want to befriend me?

I just want attention *sobs*