I am having a very bad trip in Hawaii right now because my new house in Hawaii looks like a awful disaster and never got done and I did something completely stupid at a dinner restaurant and I have been a very depressed person lately and thinks that I have no more life. I also have thoughts of doing drugs and killing myself and I have been very sad in the inside and always angry in the inside and screaming to myself that I should hurt myself with no more love and care. There even days that I want to be killed off or starve to death like as if I was in the holocaust. I need to seek out help please and I need help please. I feel very lost in life and don't even know what to even do with it.

*cries* *cries* *cries* *cries* *cries* *cries* *cries* *cries* *cries* *cries* *cries* *cries* please hug me *cries* *cries* I would also want get well pokemon artwork please to cheer me up *hugs*