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8 years ago
Tetsu's Journal. The Wolf's Mind.
August 26th, 2017 10:26 P.M. Pacific time
Log 7:
Ever since I started working, my mind and body have been tired.. and this weekend I wanted to dedicate to drawing... only to have done squat.. I had a whole lotta motivation, but then it goes and plummets.. I wanted to draw and practice more.. but I can't.. I have little motivation right now..... almost none.. I'm just too tired and I am getting frustrated so easily...... dammit............... dammit.... I don't know..all the practice was in vain, because I can't draw... I just.. I was ready to step up. I was learning a new technique. I had a plethora of ideas for drawings.. I was practicing all day.. but I never have enough time now.. Always always always have no time or motivation coming home........god dammit man................... the hell do I do.........?
I don't know..
I just... I just wanna improve... but my motivation and enthusiasm I had is not there.. my mind is tired... no matter what I do.. I can't muster the strength...
Log 7:
Ever since I started working, my mind and body have been tired.. and this weekend I wanted to dedicate to drawing... only to have done squat.. I had a whole lotta motivation, but then it goes and plummets.. I wanted to draw and practice more.. but I can't.. I have little motivation right now..... almost none.. I'm just too tired and I am getting frustrated so easily...... dammit............... dammit.... I don't know..all the practice was in vain, because I can't draw... I just.. I was ready to step up. I was learning a new technique. I had a plethora of ideas for drawings.. I was practicing all day.. but I never have enough time now.. Always always always have no time or motivation coming home........god dammit man................... the hell do I do.........?
I don't know..
I just... I just wanna improve... but my motivation and enthusiasm I had is not there.. my mind is tired... no matter what I do.. I can't muster the strength...
But as of now I understand your frustration. When I started working I also found that a lot of my time and energy was spent on my work, not on my art, however there is always a time and place to draw, and you don't have to do it right away. If you worry too much on your lack of skills or worry about you being tired could cause lots of stress.
So I suggest you take a few days to try and relax, you don't have to practice right away. If I'm ever tired then rest, and draw when you really feel the urge to.
Also, don't feel bad about your art, it's a cycle that comes and goes. Today you might believe your art is bad, but in about a week you'll feel thrilled that you've made something special that you can enjoy. Just take some time off if need be.
If you ever need to talk, then you know where to find me.
~ Hyde
I can't imagine your frustration because i have never faced a situation like yours, but if you try Hyde's suggests, i'm sure that you will feel much better and more relaxed!
As Dante said to you, if you need someone to talk to and vent part of your frustration, count on Donny dearest friend!
Hope that you will be fine very very soon!
^^ Donny