I know I quit furaffinity... but... I'm just going to use it as a journal now... It's not like someone is gonna care, so I'm going to write my feelings down, knowing that it's going to be ignored...
I'm dying on the inside again, and I can't find the proper help... Sometimes I wish I was just finally dead, if I wasn't so against suicide, probably would've tried it by now.. But I can't bring myself to do it, so I have to live with this pain...
I even posted things on DA that basically say I'm hurt... but no one cares... I don't directly say I'm hurt, but that's because I don't know a good way to put it... so I say wubba lubba dub dub and stuff like that, I even posted a picture of my holding a smiley face to show that I fake my smiles because I'm in pain and need help... But no one cares...