So whats been up this past month+. Well to be honest, at the beginning of the month I tried to kill myself and instead just ended up mutilating myself. As you can see by this I failed miserably (my dumb fault for trying when I wasn't home alone). So I was put on what you can call "watch" since then. Am I doing better? No, not by much at all. Those thoughts have not left me. But please don't give me your pity. This isn't the first time I've done this and it probably wont be the last. I've been suicidal for many many years. I've been locked up and put on medication after medication. I've heard and seen it all.

And before someone says that suicide is not the answer, don't give me that shit. You don't know that. Who are you to judge someone else's pain? Both my mind and body is ill and I've been in pain most of my life. Who are you to judge me? Its my life and I will damn well do as I please with it. Most people say its selfish to want to die but do you know how selfish your being by not letting that before free themselves? You don't see an sick animal and go "oh well, I'm gonna keep it alive and suffering because I don't want to be alone". NO you humanly put that animal down and let their suffering end. So am I lower than an animal? I must suffer just because you don't want to lose me? Thats bullshit. As you can see I'm very passionate about this.

So the question is, will I return to art? Yes of course, I just need my personal space right now to deal with the shit going on in my life.If you do have questions about something please don't be afraid to ask. I will try to answer them the best that I can.