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Slowly Reviving
8 years ago
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Okay so I have officially cleared that hurdle of the class training, going out onto the floor soon and after this week, am officially off training for good. So that is better and further than I got last time. Also back to night shifts, which means more money in the pocket ;v;b Whoop!
I am still all over the place mentally and emotionally. Some days I'm almost normal, most days I'm definitely running below, but still functioning,
and others... well.... nope. It's still winding me that it's been six months since my mom died and it feels like it's only been half that time. And longer.
At the same time. It's fucking weird.
But I'm trying to basically figure out how to navigate no longer having someone in my life that understands me the way that she did, and to understand that nobody else is gonna get me. Hell, she got me more than I got me, and now I don't have that. It sucks. A lot.
But that's the way it is. And I am not the only one who's been shit on this year.
Hopefully come October, I'll be getting out of my reclusive shell a bit more with FurReality, and then start attending meets and being able to stomach going out in public for more than just work or necessities.
Sorry for how rambly this is and it probably isn't really even that important, but I'm trying to come back and be a consistent presence again. Social media, art stuff, actually doing things again rather than just kinda getting by day by day. I'm still probably going to be that way for awhile yet,
but I'll get myself back out there. I think. I hope.
I am looking forward to seeing you at Fur Reality and promise to be just as silly as I was last year if not more so, you only get nuttier the older you get....or so I tell myself to compensate. We can also tease
Do take care of yourself and take your time with everything, alright? This road is tough and bumpy but I promise if you keep pushing through it'll get better eventually. If you need an adventure buddy I'll be there walking with ya....well maybe a bit behind, short legs and all...nothing to do with being a big feller.
But yes, shifter and I will both be at fur this year. Probably will trying to get in on the Ironclaw campaign again too if you're interested in joining us.
I hope I can one day meet you at a future FWA or something of the sort!