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A change of wind ( a new me)
8 years ago
~3:30am~
~Past~
l know in the past l was a butt and a attention whore granted l was young and new to the fandom and l feel everyone has a phase when they first enter the fandom. l know l was smart, stupid, manipulative, a massive butt/tease and two faced to some if not most of my friends.
I'M SORRY with all my heart l do apologize to the friends l hurt.
~Now~
l have changed and grown up l know l'm only 22 but l've matured a lot. l've moved out of my parents house living the responsibility of adult or at least trying with my mental issues. social anxiety sucks and been having to use close BFF's to be my social crutch and it's really difficult for me to leave my apt ;-; its like my safety bubble, but l know l need to overcome this fear, this social anxiety monster and actually move on in life and do what l must do in life........ meet new people give them great idea's and let my ideas spread cause l know l'm not a talented artist or super duper smart like some of the furs but l know my blood line. Now granted my grammar sucks but l know l can write\speak some great stories. cause if anything, l can do something most people can't do....and that is.....having control over very vivid and colorful dreams and being able to see the seed of creation and nurture it in the path of happiness & sorrow cause you can't have the light without darkness.
l know ill be trying my hardest to be more social at local events and conventions (cons have been getting less fun for me each year) but l will need help from my friends and l'm willing to help build back the bridges l burn in the past.
l know some people have this feeling when they were growing up but ill say it too " l've always felt older\ more mature than my age."
~Future~
l do plan on going back to school for psychology (plan on being some type of therapist)which l know is somewhat ironic with my already existing mental problems but l've always been intrigue by the nature of how one thinks and there is more things that we don't know that the brain is capable of.
~4:55am~
~Past~
l know in the past l was a butt and a attention whore granted l was young and new to the fandom and l feel everyone has a phase when they first enter the fandom. l know l was smart, stupid, manipulative, a massive butt/tease and two faced to some if not most of my friends.
I'M SORRY with all my heart l do apologize to the friends l hurt.
~Now~
l have changed and grown up l know l'm only 22 but l've matured a lot. l've moved out of my parents house living the responsibility of adult or at least trying with my mental issues. social anxiety sucks and been having to use close BFF's to be my social crutch and it's really difficult for me to leave my apt ;-; its like my safety bubble, but l know l need to overcome this fear, this social anxiety monster and actually move on in life and do what l must do in life........ meet new people give them great idea's and let my ideas spread cause l know l'm not a talented artist or super duper smart like some of the furs but l know my blood line. Now granted my grammar sucks but l know l can write\speak some great stories. cause if anything, l can do something most people can't do....and that is.....having control over very vivid and colorful dreams and being able to see the seed of creation and nurture it in the path of happiness & sorrow cause you can't have the light without darkness.
l know ill be trying my hardest to be more social at local events and conventions (cons have been getting less fun for me each year) but l will need help from my friends and l'm willing to help build back the bridges l burn in the past.
l know some people have this feeling when they were growing up but ill say it too " l've always felt older\ more mature than my age."
~Future~
l do plan on going back to school for psychology (plan on being some type of therapist)which l know is somewhat ironic with my already existing mental problems but l've always been intrigue by the nature of how one thinks and there is more things that we don't know that the brain is capable of.
~4:55am~
