So...I guess I have some explaining to do. As some of you may have known, It's been a bit since I've promised some of you some art, from raffle wins and requests. Well...it's complicated.
When I started doing raffles, I never really thought much of it, just another way to draw people. well after I lost my free time and a lot of my will to draw for a while, these became increasingly hard to follow through with.

first off, a lot of the time when someone wins they say "just draw whatever" which you might think would be making the artists job easier, but you're very wrong. Usually we need this kind of direction when doing this stuff, if you just say "draw whatever" than we have nothing to go off, and we lose interest and motivation. it's almost as bad as making the request too complicated.
Plus with refs that are too complicated, or are something I can't draw in my style. when doing these free raffles I feel like I've lost a lot of motivation to draw, I can hardly build up enough to make something afterwards. Which is why a lot of you haven't gotten your pics yet...and...you're not going to.

Sorry if this makes me an asshole, but I simply cannot do these raffle pics, drawing for others I've found has made my life a lot less fun, and more stressful. Now keep in mind these were free pics, so I really don't want to hear about how you got scammed and how I should get banned, I didn't steal anything from you, I just couldn't give anything.

On that same note, please, please PLEASE stop asking me for free requests! I'm not going to name names but People have been constantly asking me to draw this or sprite that, not even leading into this, and they keep spamming me about it. From now on I will not be taking requests. If you note me about one I will ignore you, If you keep noting me I will have to block you.

Again, I'm sorry for making you all wait for nothing, but all this stress is getting to me, I already have to worry about school, other friends who are also going through hard times, my personal life, and this constant voice in my head telling me that I'm horrible and that one little mistake I did years ago is still bad enough to the point that I should just drop off Fa entirely. When I was younger and way less mature.

I'm sorry if this is a disappointment for you, but it's what's on my mind. I'm sorry. I will still be drawing, but these are what's been going through my mind as of late