How Do I Come Across?
8 years ago
Glimpse The Thoughts of Jack the Beaver
I spoke to a friend tonight about a few personal things, and we got to discussing meeting with him again sometime. And as I was informed, his parents don't want me around. I met them briefly two years ago and I didn't shake his fathers hand. Mind you it never occurred to me to shake his hand. I'm not big on touch, as anyone who has met me knows, but I meant no ill will. I never meant to upset them.
My dad told me not to worry about it, but that's his opinion on everything. For me that's not an option, I still have to interact with people. If I'm upsetting people, I need to know. I clearly upset these people, so much so they don't want me around their son. And it just never occurred to me
So I am asking sincerely what am I doing wrong? I mean, what am I doing to upset people? I am asking all who read this, how do I come across?
I'm good at reading people. That's the weird thing is I'm good at reading people's behavior. But I can't read myself if my life depended on it. I only see my worst aspects in me, so I try to correct them. What if I'm over correcting though? Instead of coming across as sincere I instead come across as creepy.
All people who read this, tell me how do I seem when you speak to me? And more importantly, if I come across as bizarre or creepy, why? Because of the problems I see in me, this is one I very clearly missed. And it's one that has left me surprisingly upset.
I don't think highly of myself. I always hear my parents telling me what a loser I am. And when I hear others tell me this, it doesn't make things easier. In fact it makes me wonder if my parents are right all along. Because everyone else can tell you things are going just fine, but the few voices that are beating you down will drown them out.
Please be open and honest. I'd rather hear it.
My dad told me not to worry about it, but that's his opinion on everything. For me that's not an option, I still have to interact with people. If I'm upsetting people, I need to know. I clearly upset these people, so much so they don't want me around their son. And it just never occurred to me
So I am asking sincerely what am I doing wrong? I mean, what am I doing to upset people? I am asking all who read this, how do I come across?
I'm good at reading people. That's the weird thing is I'm good at reading people's behavior. But I can't read myself if my life depended on it. I only see my worst aspects in me, so I try to correct them. What if I'm over correcting though? Instead of coming across as sincere I instead come across as creepy.
All people who read this, tell me how do I seem when you speak to me? And more importantly, if I come across as bizarre or creepy, why? Because of the problems I see in me, this is one I very clearly missed. And it's one that has left me surprisingly upset.
I don't think highly of myself. I always hear my parents telling me what a loser I am. And when I hear others tell me this, it doesn't make things easier. In fact it makes me wonder if my parents are right all along. Because everyone else can tell you things are going just fine, but the few voices that are beating you down will drown them out.
Please be open and honest. I'd rather hear it.
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That's incredibly petty and vindictive of them, They sound like classic jerks!
There's no problem with the way you come across, and honestly, all the negativity you're feeling is only going to get worse if you try to please these people. If you read people well enough, you'd know when they'd feel uncomfortable. It's just that some people are going to dislike you. For whatever reason, they just will. It sucks because most of the time it's petty or doesn't make any sense.
As for your parents calling you a loser: That's unacceptable. I'd find any way I could to not live there anymore. That's just a personal opinion though and I don't mean anything offensive by it. Just personal experiences.
When you can, take 5 minutes to think about all of the good people in your life that you love. It helps me when I feel this way.
Hope you feel better man. <3