x_x sigh.. life is still processing, and expensive. My backs been out for over a month now (you can stop hurting now back..plz) and I've been battling this fucking art block.

But I REALLY need to pull my weight, my mate cannot do it all on his own. Especially with more needs and expenses pilling on all the time. We may be getting married soon (no not wedding, just the legal bit) to push for the visa to be fucking accepted and finalized so I can stay here. But it's eating up any extra cash we have, and the cost of Uber trips to go anywhere is also expensive..so we're trying to get a car loan for a used car.. (He walks/bikes to work, like 6miles a day, even in rain or storm), since the Visa place and my doctor are so much farther away. (nothing good in this area..we wanna move but can't yet.. still in the renovated garage in super ghetto crime land, where our local shop is covered in gang tags)

I need to make at LEAST 100$ a month. ..So if I could do 6 15$ sketches, or 4 25$ sketch pages.. that'd be amazing. I'm still ALWAYS working on the bigger pieces..I AM. But it's slow..and I'm still shy about the streaming. I don't know why I'm so anxious about it all. Feel SO ashamed about my art now days..how slow I am, how little I can manage.

I love all of you guys..and thank you SO much for being SO patient with me. Some people waiting even over a year!!!